When opposites attract

Love?

Lola's PoV:

I crawled out of bed not taking my eyes off Matt before walking out his room , Danny will be so mad if he finds out.  I quickly swallow some pills before walking into my own room.

I open the door slowly being as quite as I could but it didn't matter as soon as I was fully in the room he was waiting.

He looked like an over worried boyfriend leaning up on his elbows. He's eyes was black and it was obvious he didn't get much sleep last night. I feel guilt overwhelm  me.  He was obviously expected me to be home earlier as it looked as if he got ready for bed at one point I could tell as he didn't wear a top to bed and there he was sitting their shirtless, with his black bags under his eyes staring at me.

I sit on the bed and he follows me eyebrows raised waiting for my answer.

'Hey,' I finally let out.

'Hey is hey all you can say, I've been up for nearly the whole night worrying about you!'  Shit I was meant to call him when I wanted to go home, he was meant to pick me up. 

'It got to 2 o'clock when I went to the club to make sure you hadn't died when I didn't see you there,'  I had never seen  Dannie so mad at me, his tone was scaring me.

'Relax I must of got a taxis or something.'

'That's not fucking point, I thought that burglar must of recognised you. Especially when Matt got home and you wasn't there.' He lowers his voice on this one not wanting anyone else to hear this.  I raise my eyebrows curiously knowing that I woke up in matts room I must of been behind him when we walked in or Dannie didn't see or something.

'So where have you been then?' I debate telling him the real story not wanting him to take it the wrong way. I knew that I had to tell  him the real reason as I didn't lie to him well on any other subject than my real feeling to him I don't lie.

'I was with Matt.' I see way to many emotions cross his face, 'please do not flip out me didn't do anything,'

'He's dating your sister!' I don't dare look away from him not wanting him to get any madder than he had to be.

'I promise you we didn't do anything I don't feel anything for him,'

'I find that hard to believe,' mixture of Anger, pain  and guilt.

'I don't, I promise you those feeling are saved for him.' I open my eyes realising what I did, I said him out of everything I said him, if it was them it would of implied that I hadn't met him yet but because I said him I sounds as if I had.

'Who's him?' Danny looks hurt as if I should of told him he knows it not Nick as I ending that when I realised he just liked how I looked not me.

'It doesn't matter.'  I couldn't tell him who he was cause it would ruin everything, he has never felt the same way so what would be the point in telling him.'

' God lola why can't you tell me stuff your supposed to be my best friend' his piercing brown eyes stare into my soul.

The humidity in the rooms grown with the tension my stomach churning in pain my lungs trying to find the air to breath. I had alway kept this lie for him. What was I meant to do tell him that he wasn't just a best friend to me. That my heart aches for him everyday and it hurt every time we didn't talk that I hated grace just because  she had him that I couldn't bare the thought of talking about her that I couldn't watch him love her they way I wanted him to love me that I didn't want to be that best friend figure but that was all I was going to ever be

'Because I'm not enough.'  He stares at me not knowing what I meant I didn't know what I meant. He gives me a curious look and I get mad knowing that he's so obvious he will never see.

'Because I'm not enough to love you! I think you deserve the sun and the sky's every fucking star that shines.' My voice start to raises into an angry tone

'You are a blessing into my life, you make me laugh when I don't want to, you understand me like no body does.' I feel the tears to my eyes but they wasn't for embarrassment or sadness they was for holding it in so long for all of this worked up inside of me.

'I never wanted anyone not after what my brother did I pushed you away but you fought for your way back in and slowly I felt myself falling for you from every piece of my broken heart.' I don't even dare to look at him, I had wiped the tears away and was now completely shouting my confession to him.

'I don't even know why I mean your stupid, your obvious and so weird, no where near perfect. Yet sometimes I can't even find the words to describe you.'  I feel it flowing out of me with no controls

' Lola,' 

'And it's like describing the taste of water, impossible.'

'Lola' I hear him but keep going

'But you can't live without water you without it you will die.'

'Lola will you fucking look at me,'  we both stand there, I don't even know if we was mad at each other or it's awkwardness in the air but we just sit there him now sitting closer to me just staring into my eyes.

He doesn't say a word just looks into my eyes then embraces me into a kiss. It was everything I thought it would be yet confusing in May ways, i imagine how my breath must taste like alcohol but He doesn't care.  He pulls away looking at me with a small smirk on his face.

'Why didn't you ever tell me?'

'You was with Grace, and then I never thought  you felt the same way.' 

He lets out a small smile before his lips come crashing into mine again.