When opposites attract

Forgotten

Matt PoV:

Shit, well I'm guessing Lola's pretty pissed at me. They both start to wake up "damn I had too much to drink last night" Lily says lifting her head but not her hand off my stomach, then the girl does the same " hey, I have no idea who you guys are so I'm guessing I drunk too much too". They both turn to me and start giggling "what?" Why do girls laugh all the time "your pretty much naked and we both slept on you last night" I laugh too "yeah I guess that's funny". I get up and slip on some joggers before going to get some pills for this fucking headache. "Matt," I turn round to see them both sitting on the sofa wearing my tops "oh, well I see you found something comfortable to wear then" I pass the pills to the two "oh yeah, thanks Matt, seeing your not wearing one anyway we thought it would be ok" the girl laughs "we are totally fine with it being off tho tbh" I sit between them and turn to the girl, "what's your name? I didn't catch it was night" she giggles "oh yeah, well it's not sexy slut like I said last night, it's Mal"

Matt Flashback :

"Mal, you know I love ice cream" she nods and chucks me a tub of my favourite Baileys ice cream "that's why I bought you some" I grab a spoon and dig in "Matt, we need to talk" ok, I grab her by the hand, lead her to the sofa and we both sit down "what's up?". She looks a bit scared to talk but she finally asks "why don't you have a girlfriend? Or any friends?" I put my ice cream to the side and take her hands in mine "because you are all in need" she looks up at me and kisses me and for some reason I kiss back before pulling away "Matt" she looks up with me with tears in her eyes "Mal, you don't want this, you don't want me" she looks me straight in the eyes "I do, I've loved you for so long" this makes sense to me know, why she's let me live with her, why she loves me flirting and how she gets in bed with me sometimes when she's sad. "Malone, before I can say I love you I have to tell you the real me" she nods whilst still staring into my eyes "Im fucked up, no good, broken. You deserve someone just as amazing as you are." She hugs me, she still not crying tho, I have held her so many times while she cried about so much terrible stuff that has happened to her. She says in a tiny voice "I thinks your amazing". This was going to be the first time I cried in front of her, and the last. Tears started to roll down my face and I hugged her tight so she couldn't move to see me just yet, "I steal," she wiggles out of my grasp and sits in front of me still with out tears "what do you mean 'steal'?" More tears run down as I know that I'm about to lose her "I steal. Money, valuables and anything else I can get my hands on, that's how I get my money" I can't see her face right now as my eyes are too puffy "no" oh no "Mal?" "NO" "I'm sorry" "No No No No No No" "Mal?" I sorted my self out just to see Mal run into her room and slam the door closed. I get up and go to the door. "Malone?" "Please" "please don't hate me" she crying now, I can hear it through the door. "Matt I still Lov.... Fuck off, leave, I hate you" each thing she said I took as a bullet "Mal, I love you" that's all I could say and it wasn't fair to do to her "that's ... That's, I can I I I just" I'm in floods of tears once again "Matt, I never want to see you again and if you ever come back I will tell the police what you are".
I feel like I have been stabbed, losing Mal will be losing a part of myself. I'm never getting close to anyone ever again. I am dirt and should be dead. I am the person people should stay away from so I can never hurt them again. No one should love me because I do not deserve their love. "I'm sorry"

End of flashback

"Sorry I got to go" I fast walk into my bed room locking the door so non one can come in. Everything plays back in my mind. "I'm sorry"