When opposites attract

Better this way

Matt PoV

Lola said she would drive us home since Mal was in to much of a state to drive and I didn't trust myself to drive either.
I sat in the back with Mal. She's sleeping with her head against me, she's adorable.
I show a small smile seeing how she's so vulnerable right now cuddle up to me. I sit up straight with her still against me, her hair covers her face so I put it behind her shoulder. Taking her fragile hand in mine it fits well with our common hobby in destroying the skin around our nails, it reminds me of the way we would hold hands when one of us was nervous so we couldn't do it. Helping each other.

Lola is staying silent, every so often looking in the mirror checking on us. I try to put my mind to rest but it doesn't want to. I still can't believe I killed an innocent man and then took advantage of Mal. I look down at her, I still love her as much as I always have but look what I have put her through.

When we get back to the flat she wakes up and storms off to my room.
"Matt, we should take about the other day," she says sitting innocently on my bed. I close the door incase the other could hear and sit next to her.

"We should break up" she says holding in a laugh, a nervous one. "Yeah probably for the best to be honest" I say scratching the back of my head. Right, so me and Mal are basically the same person and I know us breaking up isn't a big thing just as she knows. She starts giggling, "Hey, Muscles, stop showing off or I'll never let you go" She has tears in her eyes but continues smiling. I know she's sad and really loves me but me are too similar to work, like they say - Its really opposites that attract.

"I love you Mal, you know that and tho we are not ever to be a couple we will always be besties" I say holding her hands, "I know silly, I love you too. Just promise me no more making mummies of our friends. Its ok, our fun was safe.". She try's to stay with a straight face but fails bursting out with laughter and hiding her face in her hands. "Still sorry about that, I was really not right" she stops laughing and gets close to my face. "Well, forget about it now, Ill just be your little sister again if you want, just not blood related of course" I pull her into a hug, "Just be my cute little best friend yeah?" she snuggles in tighter, "yah"

When Mal left I thought there was no one home but I noticed Lola sitting on the sofa wrapped in her duvet watching some shitty rom con. I walk over to the TVs and start on of my favourite movies- the butterfly effect.
"I was watching that" she said, but she sounded too mentally drained to argue with me now. "This film is much better, don't worry it still has a love story, just a very messed up one, most stories are better with those tho". I smile but her face doesn't change.
"I have a scan tomorrow Matt, and this thing inside me has an unknown fathers of which both hate me" she pulls the comforter tighter around her.
"Lola, I don't hate you, this is just... Just.. Well uncomfortable at the moment, for me and Daniel" I walk over the the fridge/freezer and grab: ice cream, strawberries, any chocolate bars we have left and and apple. "Well what ever you two boys are feeling, I promise I'm a lot worse" she sighs, "you've even moved onto Mal now, that was fast" I walk to her passing her a big bowl of ice cream and lazily cut up chocolate bars whilst I sit down with my strawberries and apple. "No, we aren't together so you don't have to be jealous about that, she's just my best friend" she gives me a dirty look and shovels ice cream into her mouth. "And I'm single now so I'm here for that baby now, if it's mine, probably not but if it is I'll try, like I'll have to get a job and we would have to buy a proper house with a garden, had a pet or two, make it a sibling cause you can't have an only child.." "MATT, stop, I just had visions of me being old and I don't need that right now" I smile cause   Lola smiled at my lay out of life. "Well that's not what you want?" She stops smiling and looks down, "not really".

She finishes the bowl, just as the film finished. "To be honest, that film what actually pretty good and the junk food helped" she says happily, which is good. "Well I have good taste, but now some thing serious, I can't come to that scan with you tomorrow" her face drops, "why not?" It's unfair on her as she has to go but I know I can't. "I have work, and I can't get it off" she throws the remote at my chest and it feels like she left a bruise it was at such a force, "idiot, I know you work from home" shit well... "Yes but I get called into meetings , ones I can't miss, sorry" defeat shows from her but I just can't, "however I talked to Daniel and he's gonna take you" her expression doesn't really change. "Ok, anyway I'm gonna sleep now, it's getting late." She heads past me towards her bedroom. "Lola wait, friends again?" She nods before going into her room and closing the door behind her.

As I lay in my bed I'm glad we are friends again, I don't actually see myself away from this place with out theses guys, with out Lola. It's weird but I realise, I want her. When I saw her sad, I knew I had to cheer her up and I did by just being me.The way she watched that film so into it, wanting to be part of it and liking it as I do, I almost wanted her be in my arms. Part of me what's it to be my baby, because maybe I do love Lola.