When opposites attract

Bi bitch

Matt POV

I hear the door go, finally Lucy is back. I walk out with a huge smile on my face but it suddenly fades when I see Lola instead.
She looks worried and upset.
"Hi" She says with a smile, I just ignore her and walk over to the sofa.
"Matt? Do you want to talk?" Crossing my arms I stay silent, she puts her hand in my shoulder "please?"
"No, I'm waiting for Mal, my new girlfriend"
Hope that pisses her off she doesn't even seem to like Mal. She comes to sit next to me looking worried "what about my sister?", " bitch is never here for me and is probably being a slut in.. In whenever the fuck she it". Her face turns and I can see the pain I caused "Don't fucking talk about my sister like that, what makes you any better than her you pig!".
"I did so much, you know I did!" She gets up and walks to her bedroom. Just before slamming the door she shouted "yeah, getting me pregnant was great Matt, and you can't even look at me"
She doesn't even know if it's mine or Danny's so.

After the argument I went to bed and napped for an hour. Waking up i sore Mal sitting at the end of my bed playing my video games quite skilfully. "Hi, what you doing here?" I say rubbing my eyes. "Hi cutie, I was gonna wake you up but you looked to good asleep" she smiles whilst putting down the remote and climbing to lay on top of me. "Have a good sleep?", "yes" she looks me in the eye with a amused look, "so, we're in a relationship now then Matt? Why did Lola know this before me?" I cover my face with my hand remembering the argument. "Sorry abo..." But before I can finish she kisses me. I kiss back.

I must have fallen asleep again, I hope
This is just tiredness. This time Mal's asleep on top of me. I stroke her hair and she moves slightly, she actually thinks we are together doesn't she. I've really gotten my self into something haven't I. I'm not leaving Lucy, I think I love her and well I want to travel with her. I'll tell her all this when she comes back later.

Once Mal woke up she gave me a kiss and left as she had to go to work. I talk to her later.
I'll just play my PlayStation for a while then if she's gonna be like that.

God these people can not drive and shoot at the same time. I play this game to get inspiration, yeah i play a crime game and i do crime i get it. Shit, out of bullets, guess the baseball bat works.

"Matt?"
"Oh Lucy, your back!, there's something great I want to tell you!" I say happily whilst putting down my PlayStation remote and sitting up on my bed.
She sits next to me on the bed and gives me a hug, a tight one. I go in for a kiss but she stops me, "we need to talk"

"Ok then, what's up?"
She looks down but I can't even find the emotional strength to look her in the eye anything. When you haven't seen someone in so long all you want to do is be close to them.
"Well you know I've been travelling for a while, well... I've discovered something about my self"
She looks up and at me right in my eyes , "I'm bisexual, and I have to break up with you"
"I understand"
I don't understand, I loved her and she's just wants me to go. Tho I did or may have got her sister pregnant.Then she pulls me in for an even tighter hug then before, "thank you"

We had stayed there for a while, just hugging it out but if anything that made me even worse. She left with out saying anything, easier for her i guess, but it left me with an open wound that i felt had to be filled if i was gonna get through this.
I mean this is why I don't like relationships, this is why I don't have them, she left me and I don't know why. Why?

What did I do wrong?
Maybe I should have traveled with her?
Would that have made this work?
Maybe it's Mal?
Maybe it's Lola?
No it me, it's my fault, I did something wrong.
But maybe I wanted this?
I think I wanted this
Am I back to normal?
Maybe this was meant to be?
Fuck it?