Sorry

Chapter 1

Picture is Nicole

I wake up the same way I do every school day my mom yelling at me to get up or I'll be late to the bus. Not that it matters if I'm late to the bus mom, dad, or my aunt, who happens to be my neighbor, will take me to school. The only reason she makes a big deal it's because she doesn't like to ask people for things. As I lay on my bed about to fall asleep again she yells " Arual Castle get your ass up and get dressed for school" , buuuut I don't want to, I mumble as I get up. As I stumbled half asleep around my room to get dressed I remember the fresh cuts on my arm. fuck, I mumble. The school has been looking really hard for girls who are cutting so they can "help" them but there not helping at all their just making it worse. As I cover up my cuts with my jacket I make a mental note to not let anyone see my arm. Noone suspects that I cut because I'm such a happy person and I am but when I'm alone "which is a lot living in the country" I start thinking and well it just goes from there.

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As I get on the bus I take my usual spot right next to the heater. Being the second person on the bus gives its advantages it means 1 hour of extra sleep on the ride to school. As I lay back in my chair and relax in the heat I start to drift off to sleep.

Normally I don't have dreams let alone vivid dreams but today was different. Today I dream so vivid that when I woke up I didn't know where I was. I dream that I was walking through the woods and I came across a wolf a huge wolf my favorite animal is a wolf and I've always wanted werewolves to be real not the scary kind though the ones like Jacob from Twilight so this seemed completely normal to dream. Then it got weird he shifted and it was a boy with black hair and blue, green eyes. I've never seen someone like this, and scientists say that anyone you dream you've seen before but might not remember seeing them. But I know if I ever see someone like this guy in front of me I would remember him no doubt. He started walking up to me and I realized I couldn't move that part was normal for my dreams because in the dreams I seem to remember are about losing control not being able the control my body or falling. As he got closers I didn't feel scared which if this was my normal losing control dreams I would have been, but this, this was different like I wanted to stay. When he got close enough to touch he stop and said in a mesmerizing voice " everything is about to change ".

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As I walk off the bus I'm wondering what the dream means when I see two of my best friends Nicole in Elizabeth and the thoughts of the dream disappears. We talk about their lives because they both love someone the can't have, I don't talk about my "love life" because I have a guy that loves me but I don't love back so I'm on the opposite side of them so I just listen. As the time goes by more girls join and talk about random stuff to keep our minds off the cold (it doesn't work very well) until the teachers let us in the school.

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As the end of the day came I walk to the bus because I can't go to Nicoles house on Mondays because my mom doesn't work. The ride home is as fun as ever because I'm listening to the high schoolers be perverted.

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When I get home I strip and lay on my bed hoping I'll just have a short nap so I can do all the stuff I have to do before tomorrow but knowing my luck ha that won't happen.