online // destiel

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I became satan

im sorry

don't cry
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Gabriel ran into the kitchen, following his brother in a hurry. "Castiel!" He called once he got into the kitchen. He looked for any evidence of cas. But the only thing he found was an open drawer.

Gabe ran over to it and looked in side. "Oh god no.." He ran upstairs urgently screams for cas. "CASTIEL!" He ran into his brothers room and saw the white medical cap on the floor with scattered objects. He cursed under his breath and ran to the closed bathroom door, banging on it hard. "I KNOW YOUR IN THERE!" He yelled but wasn't replied to.

"SAMM!" Gabriel yelled with a crack in his voice. He hit the door and tried to pick it with something sharp, but nothing worked. "Gabriel whats wrong?" Dean asked wiping his eyes as he ran up with sam just behind him.

"C-cas.. Pills..door." He choked in between sobs as he twisted the knob over and over again. Dean went limp as he knew what was happening behind that door. All his body shut down and the only thing he could do was watch.

He watched sam break down the door.
He noticed every detail from the broken mirror in the bathroom wall to the limp cas in the empty tub.

Then his body started to process all the sounds. The screams. Sobs. Cries for forgiveness. Everything.

Next came his self. He looked down at his arms with faded scars of regret. Every memory of himself before flooded his sight. All the pain and sorrow.

Soon his mind clicked and dean looked up and gasped. now able to react he ran over to the tub and to castiels limp body.

"Oh my god.." Sam covered his mouth as Gabriel cried into his shoulder. Dean picked up castiel by the side and pulled his chest to his ear trying to hear a beat.

Dean bit his lip before crying into Castiels shirt. "Car. Now." he breathed picking up castiel and carrying his weightless body downstairs.

"Don't you dare die on me Castiel Novak"

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I had to punch a wall to feel again.

2016 note: this was a fucking stupid idea, idk why i made this chapter emo??? god i was dramatic back then :^)