What's Wrong

¿Friend?

i called you my

friend

but you didn't pick up

the phone

i loved you

but my heart has been swallowed

by the black hole between us

i don't why

i still try

my throat still burns

with the tears that go unshed

when i think of you

and how the attention

i crave

by you

is so blatantly ignored

and yet, i can't force

myself to hate you

because the pain

has turned on me

and i blame myself

for every fault

even though i shouldn't

but I don't even know

how I feel about you

when all i want

is attention

do I love you

or am i caught in another sick game?

i called you friend

but you don't answer

my questions

so the answer hangs near me

i can't hate you, when i never loved you

in the first place

friend

Pretty much my life tbh