Virtual love addiction

Black Heart part 2: Chapter 10

Christmas

It was finally "Christmas" or Hannukah, I went to my grandma's/grandpa's house with my mom and ate Chinese food, we watched movies a movie called "Justin Bieber's Believe", don't even ask. I convinced my family it would be a good movie, but they didn't look too interested, seemed like they were bashing him and laughing it off. Some of them laughed too hard, some people would stare at us like we were crazy. But, I really didn't care I thought the movie was ok to be honest. Anyways, after that we got our gifts, I got clothes that my grandma made for me, a purse and perfume, I wanted a tablet too. But, I know that for Hannukah you have to get people something that you made for your own, but she also bought me a kindle fire at a tablet shop near the movie theaters. After spending time together for this Hanukkah, my grandpa dropped me off home. 

Here comes hell again, I showed off what I got for Hanukkah and my new Kindle Fire, "That's nice" He said, he always says that EVERYTIME!! I said yeah, I can't wait to use it what's the WiFi password, "I don't trust you, Amira" "Why not?" I said. He explained why, bringing up some useless bullshit, saying how I might talk to people online, really though it's not that serious! I felt really depressed as New Years was coming by, I felt like killing myself, I wish I was in a public school, I wish I could talk to people my age, me and my sister would argue here and there, she didn't understand stuff like I did, so don't wander why I didn't enjoy her company, I was blamed for every single damn thing when she did it. Since then, I kept searching up WIFIs to connect to, but there weren't any. I got hope, once it was nighttime, I found an unsecured WIFI, I believe called "Samsung", it would disconnect/connect here and there. I would mainly use the WIFI to watch my favorite youtubers, talk to my best friend that's in China (I visited her at least three months a year) and I would talk to my friends from Bigworlds. A Kindle Fire is really easy to use, you don't have to worry about getting caught and can just sneak it under the covers.

Once it was New Year's, I was kind of excited because winter break was almost over and I didn't have to worry about using my Kindle Fire with crappy Wifi, listen to the radio on my alarm clock or read books. I just can't survive like that at all, not being able to talk to people and stuck up in the apartment for a long as hell time, it's like prison. I made a video and all with my digital camera with the Sony brand, waiting for New Year's to come by so I can say goodbye to crappy 2013.I must remind you, I also met this really sweet guy during the time me and Falcon were just friends, his name was September Isnew the way we met was by dressing up as newbies. We were both pretending to be noobs and walked around Clue Club trying to troll people, it was funny how they reacted. We became friends and ever since then we spent some time together, this was only when Falcon was ignoring me. Once winter break was over, it turns out September had a girlfriend, interesting yeah. Here's what I messaged him 

"You have a girlfriend now, that's nice ig .-."

"I'm sorry, we can always be best friends right?"

"........"

Ever since I have ignored him, but September was boyfriend material and all, but he did ask me out, I refused to, because I had to at least know him a bit more. What Falcon did to me, made me lost trust in love and had fear of falling in love and having new relationships. I really had difficulty with this.