Mate Or Not. You're Still A Jerk (#1 Mate or Not)

Mood Swings

Okay I know I suck for putting a cliffhanger :P But I just couldn't stop myself :$

Okay so there might be a few mistakes but I'm planning on editing the chapters later so bear with me on this one :$

Anw. Pic of jared over there ------------>

Enjoy :)

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Lux's P.O.V.

 "But you can't forgive me either" Jared said "can you?"

I thought about it. Could I forgive him?

 "Jared I...I don't know" I said pulling away from him. "A part of me has already forgiven you I mean you'll always be my brother. But frankly" I looked down at my hands in my lap "I'm scared"

Jared lifted my face so I'd look at him "you really don't know how sorry I am" he whispered "I really am...for everything. Lux, just give me a chance to prove to you I won't treat you like before. I'll make it up for you I swear. Just let me"

I bit my lip nervously as I stared at him. A second chance, it was a simple request. I thought back to my mom and how happy she was that we would have dinner as a family again 'like we used to' her words rung clearly in my head. So many things happened and along the way we stopped being a family. That just wasn't right.

"Okay" I whispered. He beamed and hugged me tightly

 "You won't regret it Lux I swear I'm going to make it up to you. I swear it" he said while practically squishing me

 "um Jared...can't...breathe" I said and he pulled back and I smiled at him drying his wet cheeks. "Now go wash your face so we can go to dinner"

He hugged me once more and kissed the top of my head "I missed you" he said

I smiled weakly "I missed you too"

After Jared and I went downstairs I could tell my parents were a lot happier, they must have heard. Damned wolf senses.

Jared and I headed to the pack house after dinner and we walked inside together. I immediately saw Jason who shot me a questioning look.

I'll explain later  I told him and he nodded. I made my way to up the stairs thinking of how eventful my day had been, first meeting Melissa and then Jared. I thanked god I was heading to my room to sleep and nothing more would happen....but I spoke too soon

Just then I saw Whitney come out of Damon's room in nothing but one of his shirts. She saw me and smirked, winking at me before turning and heading to her room. I just stood there, frozen. Whitney's words clear in my head They've always been mine. Had Damon always been hers? What was I thinking of course he was. That's why he didn't search for me when I left. That's why he still doesn't tell people I'm his mate. Because all this time he's had Whitney, all this time he'd never cared for me, not in the slightest.

My wolf was screaming at me to go and kill Whitney but I stopped her, I wouldn't give Damon the satisfaction of knowing how his betrayal affected me. But for some reason I still couldn't move as an all too familiar feeling in the pit of my stomach kept me in place. A feeling I swore not to let overwhelm me ever again, hurt.

 I shook my head and forced myself to walk to my room. As soon as the door closed I jumped face-first on the bed. Yelling profanities in my pillow. I heard a knock on the door and lifted my head slightly to tell the person to come in, thinking it was one of the boys.

But from the scent that hit me as soon as the door opened I just froze, it was Damon.

 "Lux?" Damon asked and I told myself to calm down as I sat up and looked at him.