Moments With You {Hiatis Until Further Notice}

You Only Need the Light When It's Buring Low

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**Niall’s POV**

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            What we used to have, the joy and the endless laughter, it’s all vanished. There is no bringing it back to life.  What was once a beautiful flame has shamelessly been hindered.  The fierce light that once illuminated from what we were now dwindles like the last burning embers of what we could have been.  And it’s this entire giant let down.  A fleeting glimpse of my past, present, and future. 

            A knock. “Niall?”

            “Walk away Mum, I don’t want to talk about it.”

            “Oh sweetie, let me come in please.”

            When I didn’t respond, Mum cracked the door, peeping in to see me sprawled across my bed, sheets askew, curtains closed and dark. With tear stains adorning my face and muddled hair, I sat up to face the woman who had a hopeful look across her features.  She offered a sympathetic smile, opening her mouth to say something but shut it like she’d thought better of it.

            “Go ahead, tell me how stupid I am for losing the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Tell me how disappointed in me you are for not sticking by her side.”

            Mum shook her head and sat at the corner of my bed.  “I’ve never told you this, but the same situation approached your father and I back in the days.”

            I glanced up at her, borderline desperate to hear how they got through it.

            “We had been seeing each other for a little over five months when his ex-girlfriend, Nancy Stevens, came back into town.  When she found out we were dating,  she was enraged. She confronted me several times, always sneering and telling me how she and your father were meant to be together, and that he never truly loved me the way he had said he had.  So I, frustrated with the possibility of what she said to be true, went out and hooked up with some random in a bar.”

            My eyes felt huge on my face as a shrill gasp escaped my mouth. “You did what!”

            Mum smiled and nodded her head, “Yep, and when your father found out, he decided we should take a break while he tried to figure things out.  Let me tell you, I was a mess, but your grandfather was a good man, and he took care of me. I remember one day he sat me down and said ‘Pumpkin, You only need the light when it’s burning low and you only miss the sun when it starts to snow. You only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low, you only hate the road when you’re missing home. But most of all, you only know you love him when you let him go.’ He didn’t tell me what it meant, but I figured it out eventually, just as I know you will.”

            She left me alone with that, and unexpectedly I was thankful for the muteness.

             She had a point.  If she and dad got through it, why can't Kylie and I?  It's only a bump in the road.  There is no way I lost her, not completely anyways.  I have to get her back. I will get her back.

I slept on the thought.  That Kylie and I weren't over. We would never be 'over'.  Some way or another she will always be with me. There isn't an option for her to not be.

Someone asked me once if I believed in soulmates. I couldn't say I did or didn't.  All I knew was if someone was meant to be in your life, they will be, if they aren't, they won't be. I've pondered on the question. Could there be someone out there meant for me? Could someone have been put on this earth for me to find, and cherish forever? 

It is said that humans originally consisted of four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces, but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spend their lives searching for the other half to complete them.

Soul mates.

It's an interesting concept, really. Two separate people that came from the same soul initially. Maybe they grow up knowing each other, maybe they grow up on complete opposite sides of the world.  And sometimes, they receive their happily ever after together.  Other times, they can go their whole life without knowing one another.

I used to think I would always be a skeptic about it. But I'm not.  There isn't a way for me to be when I'm so sure I've already met her.

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A/N... Don't be mad at me, I know its way to short to make up for how long it's been, and I really really really hope I will be able to update for all of you again like way soon. I miss you my oompa loompas </3

Stay lovely :*

Cas x