17 and Pregnant(Complete)

Chapter 44

Chapter 44: Violets POV

"I don't want to be here." I say crossing my arms. I'm at the therapist and I really don't want to be here. I would rather be at the hospital seeing my baby girl, but no I have to be here. Jack made me. So did my dad, my dad is even here with me and Jack. "You have to get better Violet." "I agree with Jack Violet. You need to get better. This has been going on for 2 years now." My dad says. "I would rather see my daughter than be here." "Violet. We will go to the hospital after this, I really want you to get help honey, I almost lost not once but twice." "Promise me?" "We promise you." Jack and my dad say at the same time. I sigh and nod my head, soon there was a knock on the door and the therapist walks in. "Hello I'm Lexi, I'm gonna be your therapist. You must be Violet." The lady says and I nod my head. "And who are those people?" "That's my dad." I say pointing at my dad. "And that's my boyfriend Jack." "Hello, well okay, Violet why are you here?" "Because my boyfriend and my dad made me." "Well Violet, there has to be a reason why they made you come here. Tell me why." Lexi says and I just ignore her and look down at my feet. I really don't want to be here. "Violet you need to tell Lexi, she's here to help you, if you don't tell her and get this over with the longer we will be here and the longer you will have to wait to see Emily." My dad says and I look back up at Lexi and sigh. "I'm here because I'm depressed." "Ah, do you cut?" "Umm... Yes.." "When's the last time you cut?" Lexi says and I have a mini heart attack, my dad doesn't know I cut last night. "Um... Last night...." I mumble and my dad looks like he's gonna cry but somehow he manages to hold it back. "Let me see, both of your arms." Lexi says nicely and I take a deep breathe and flip my arms over and you could see my new and old scars. "Oh my... This is horrible Violet, you can see the old scars underneath the new ones. How long have you been cutting?" "2 years." I whisper. "Who all knows about your cutting?" "My family, Jack, and my cousin." "Why do you cut?" Lexi says and I just want to cry... Like I said before, I hate talking about my mom and grandpa almost dying. "Actually Ms. Lexi, Violet doesn't like talking about it." My dad says. "Well, I need know the cause of the cutting Violet, so can your dad tell me why?" "I guess..." I say slowly. "Okay, Mr. Payne please tell me." "Well, 2 years ago her mom an grandpa got cancer, her mom nearly died and was in the hospital for 6 months, that caused the cutting.." My dad explains and Lexi nods her head. "Well, I can see why you started cutting, but why did you cut last night?" "Because my daughter has well had a brain tumor... She had to get it removed and she's in the hospital for god knows how long and I can't handle the stress and I just cut..." I say starting to cry. "Ah, I see, have you ever tried killing yourself?" "Twice.. The first time my dad stopped me before the knife got in my stomach. The 2nd time I almost succeeded.. I hung myself." "Hold on, if you hung yourself why didn't you die? Normally when teens hang themselves they normally die, but by all means I'm glad you didn't die." Lexi says but I don't wanna answer so I look at my dad. "It's because she told her cousin she was gonna kill herself, her cousin called me in tears because she was so scared, I ran for my life to her room. I saw her body hanging from the rope. I took her down and she felt cold. I thought I lost her. Then my wife came in the room, she was crying too, but she then realized she was still alive. We rushed her to the hospital. When we got there they took care of her. I really thought I lost her because she wasn't waking up.. But then I held her hand praying she would wake up and then she did." My dad says with tears flowing down his cheeks. "Violet. Was this after or during the 6 months your mom was really sick?" "After... I never really told anybody how I felt, so I just reached my breaking point and just didn't want to live anymore." "Okay Violet this is very serious. I'm glad your dad and boyfriend made you come here. I'm gonna give you anti depression medicines, you MUST take them everyday." "I'll make sure she takes them." My dad says and I roll my eyes. "Also, I want you to come see me 3 times a week, so ill see you Monday at 4." "Okay." I say and we thank Lexi and then she leaves. "Can we leave now so I can see Emily now!" "Yes." "GOOD!" I scream as I run out of the office and to the car.

A/N: I dedicate this chapter to my friend Lexi. She's like my therapist for me personally that's why I used her name.. Anyway... Its 6:20 in the morning and I still haven't slept yet. xD I've been listing to Best Song Ever by one direction... HEHHEHEHEEHHE I LOVE THEM OMGGGGG THE MUSIC VIDEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay sorry fangirl moment.