17 and Pregnant(Complete)

Chapter 43

Chapter 43: Violets POV

Me and Jack were upstairs in my room, I have my arms wrapped around his and my head on his shoulder. We both are scared. Our little girl is in the hospital and could possibly be dying which scares me a lot. I can't handle this. I'm a weak person, I can't handle stress or sadness very well. I want to cut right now but I can't since Jacks in my room. I then remember I have a knife hidden in the bathroom. I then unwrap my arms from Jack and stand up from my bed and start to walk towards my door. "Where are you going?" "Oh uhhhh ummm... The bathroom I have to go pee." I say lying. "Thanks for the information Violet." "You asked." I say as I leave my room and run to the bathroom. When I get to the bathroom I lock the door and search for the knife. But I couldn't find it. "Shit." I mumble to myself. My dad must of found the knife and got rid of it. I sit down on the toilet and think for a minute. I can't go downstairs and get a new knife without my parents or Natalie or Andrew questioning me and surely can't go into my room and grab my knife or Jack would question me. I then quickly remember that there are razors in here. I get off the toilet and grab a razor from the bathtub. I sit back down on the toilet and flip my wrist over. I tightly grip the razor and put it on my wrist. I have never cut with a razor before, just a knife. I take a deep breath and slid the razor across my wrist. I could feel warm blood falling down my wrist. I look down and my whole arm is full of blood. I grab a washcloth and clean off my arm. I look down and there's at least 6 cuts on my wrist, Jack is gonna notice them unless I hid them. I look around the bathroom to see if I could find anything. I then found bracelets, 3 of them were big and 3 of them were small ones. I grab them not caring what they say and put them on my wrist. I look down and the bracelets cover my cuts perfectly. I then leave the bathroom and go back to my room. "I thought you fell in." Jack says laughing. "Sorry.. I got distracted by my phone." I lie. "It's fine." Jack says then he looks at my arm. "Why are wearing an Ed Sheeran bracelet? I thought Amanda and my sister liked him?" Jack says pointing at my arm. I look down and realize I am wearing an Ed Sheeran bracelet. It's Amanda's. She left it here the last time she slept over. "Oh um.. It's Amanda's she left it here." "Then why are you wearing it?" Jack says as he walks towards me. Before I could come up with a lie why I'm wearing it he takes off all of the bracelets that I am wearing. You could clearly see my cuts. I look up and Jack and he looks like he's about to cry. "Why Violet." He says putting his thumb on my cuts. "I'm upset and scared... I can't handle this my daughter might die. I had too.." I say and all Jack does is gives me a hug. "I'm scared too." He says and then breaks out hug and sits down on my bed, I follow him and sit next to him. "Violet.. I have a question." "Yes?" "What started your depression, cutting, and suicidal thoughts?" Jack asks looking at me and I take a deep breathe, I really hate talking about the fact my mom and grandpa almost died. "Well... 2 years ago... When I was 16 my mom almost died and my grandpa almost died too.." I say slowly and Jack jumps off my bed in pure shock "WHAT? HOW?!" Jack screams. "Well my mom got cancer... So did my grandpa... But the doctors lied about my mom.. They said they caught the cancer earlier enough. So stage one breast cancer.. She also got pregnant with my sisters Isabelle and Victoria. Before you say anything Isabelle was a twin... Just hold on. The cancer wasn't stage one. It was stage 4. My mom was in the hospital for 6 months.. It was just me, Natalie, Andrew, and my dad. It was horrible. I couldn't handle the fact my mom and grandpa might die.. And my dad was miserable I mean miserable.. It broke my heart.. And seeing my mom weak and fragile broke my heart and I couldn't handle it anymore, so I started to cut. Then my mom and grandpa had surgery on the same day.. My dad had to choose who's surgery to go to and he chose my moms and my uncle Niall wasn't really happy about that and they got into a fight and then my mom went into early labor... And the other baby died.. That's why I'm depressed and cut. My life for my family was a living hell for months." "Oh my..... I have another question... why did you try to kill yourself?" " Before I meet you is when I tried killing myself.. I guess because I never really told any of my feelings to anybody so I guess all of it just kept building up causing me to break. I reached my breaking point.. I told Amanda I was going to kill myself. I was glad I did.. Because she told my dad.. If she didn't tell my dad I would be dead. My dad caught me in time before I actually died he rushed me to the hospital all I remember is my dad was crying because I wasn't waking up and finally I did wake up.. My da was happy.. But he didn't leave is room for days because he was so upset...And I guess the stress is still on me." I say and I look over at Jack and he's crying, he then pulls me into a hug and holds me tightly. "Violet I want you to get help." "No... I hate talking to strangers about my feelings." "Violet you're getting help and that's final." Jack says as he breaks the hug and stands up an grab his phone and dials a number and leaves my room, about 5 minutes later he comes back into my room. "You have an appt. tomorrow with a therapist. My cousin goes to her." "I'm not going." "You're going and that's final." "Ugh I have no choice do I?" "Nope." Jack says and I cross my arms and stick my tongue at him. He then gives me a hug and I hug him back, but I don't let go, I ended up falling asleep in his arms.

A/N: ALMOST 500 READS AHHHHH!!!!!!! Anyway this story is coming to an end soon): im writing the final chapter now like I have the chapters all written on my notepad.BUT. I am making a sequel to this!