Supernatural Oneshots English -CLOSED-

"I'm dead because of you Sam Winchester."

You were packing your stuff. Actually you were throwing stuff in the duffle bag without looking any closer. You just wanted to get out of here. Your first rage was gone and left a whole where was supposed to be your heart.

You zipped the bag and threw it over your shoulder while grabbing your keys. You were crossing the room with the big map-table when he crossed your way.

"Where are you going?", you could hear the slight panic in his voice but you didn't care.

"Home."

You could see that just this one word hurt him more than the most things you could say now.

"You are home.", Sam said looking into your eyes searching for the person he loved. But she was under lockdown and visiting ours were over.

"No. Not anymore atleast. You took that away from me.", you said and wanted to get out of there when he stopped you by grabbing your wrist.

"Don't. Fucking. Touch. Me.", you yelled and freed yourself and stepped back.

"Please. Just listen. I know I made a mistake and I am sorry and I know that I can't take back anything and I don't want you to forgive me now. I know that's impossible. Maybe in a few month or a year. But I want you to stay. I want you to know that it meant nothing to me it was a terrible huge mistake I'll regret forver."

"You know...you always blamed yourself for Kevins death and said that it was your mistake. But it wasn't. It still isn't. You didn't kill that poor guy but you sure as hell killed me and the only responsible person for that is you and only you. When you were soulless I said 'alright that's not my Sammy. He isn't in charge right now.' When you were on Demon blood I said 'Alright. He lost controll over himself. He is not in charge." But now? What is your excuse Sunnyboy? What in the damn world happened to you this time that would let me sleep at night in your arms even if you slept with another damn girl? Nothing. That's right. This time it was you. It was the guy I fell in love and he cheated on me. Maybe it was also you the first and the second time but that doesn't matter anymore. This time it was you and you have no excuse. You were drunk? We are always a little drunk. That's not an excuse. You just crashed your hand through my chest and ripped my heart out like it meant nothing. Like a stone cold killer. I'm dead for you remember that. Put a grave stone in your yard and talk zto it when you need to pitty yourself because I am dead because of you Sam Winchester."
He kind of stopped breathing, he didn't blink, he didn't talk. He froze but from his facial expression you could see that you broke the last hope he was holding on to.
He was crying and your heart broke again so you stepped away and looked away.

"Please...just. Stay. Hate me. Don't talk to me. Don't even look at me but stay. Let me show you that I mean what I said. I know it isn't a reason but we faught and I was angry and drunk. I shot Dean out and went to a bar. I know that..."

Both of you jumped when the bunker door opened and closed and you heared footsteps.

"Hello fellas. I am here to bring you the beautiful art of the bakery nearby. Cherry pie! Let's just eat ....what the hell?", you heared him say right behind you but you didn't turn around.

"I should go.", you mumbled and were about to pass Dean when he held you back.

"Y/N. Did you cry? What...Sam what did you do?", his voice was pure seriousness and all charm was gone.

"Dean. Please just let it go. It was nice knowing you but a chapter of my life ends here. I won't see you again.", you said with a sad smile and wiped away the tears and breathed in. You put your hand on his shoulder for a few seconds and you wanted to leave when Dean understood and lost it.

"You son of a bitch!", he barked and punched Sam in the face and you shrieked rushing over to the brothers leaving the bag behind you.
They were on the floor and Dean was punching Sam while yelling stuff you couldn't concentrate on because of the amount of blood Sam was loosing.

"Dean! DEAN!", you yelled and grabbed him by his arms and pulled at him but it didn't work. He didn't move an inch this damn man.
So you did the first thing that came to your mind. You threw yourself over Sam and between him and Dean and his fist. You placed your hands softly on his head and burried your face in his neck.

"Just stop.", you cried and felt a few seconds later how he stood up. You also sat up and looked down onto Sams bloody swallen face. He was looking at you and you couldn't breath.
You stood up looking away and going back to your stuff.

"She loves you. She won't stop loving you, you bag of dicks. But you don't deserve her. She is better off without you and that's why I'm not going to stop her. Not this time.", with these words Dean left to the kitchen and you picked your bag from the ground.

"I'll see you Sam.", you said quietly and took a deep breath,"Probably in hell.", you added and these were your last words to Sam Winchester.

You never saw him again.