Royals'

Four.

"I fell in love with the devil's son. We indulged ourselves in sin. Then he left me with ashes for a heart." -Cymplicity

On the day of my seventeenth birthday, I stood in my bedroom smiling, nervously to myself. Did I really have enough courage to leave all of this behind? Sitting on my bed, I pulled my phone out for what felt like the hundredth time and sent another message to Sherwin. For some reason he wasn't picking up his phone nor replying back to my messages.

"You okay honey?" My mom asked, coming into my room.

"Yeah...I'm fine." I replied, forcing a smile.

"My baby girl growing on up huh? I remember it like it were yesterday that I was pushing your huge head out! I told you I had a natural birth right?" She asked sitting on my bed.

"Yeah mom. Only like a million times." I mumbled.

"So where are you going?" She asked.

"Huh?"

"You thought I didn't see your suitcase that's packed up under your bed?" She asked.

"You went into my room?!" I yelled.

"Child I pay rent up in here. This is MY room! Better sit your little ass down and answer me before I lose my religion. Now where are you going? You running away? I didn't raise your ungrateful ass up until now, just for you to run away! Is life here that bad?" She asked, grabbing onto her heart, tears lined her eyes.

"Mom...I'm in love." I whispered.

"So this is about that heathen huh? Well get out then! Get!" She yelled, pulling out my suitcase from underneath my bed and handing it to me.

"Don't be mad at me..." I whispered, grabbing it and my phone then walked out the room.

"If you walk out of that door, I no longer have a daughter." She said, from the top of the staircase. I opened the front door..looked back at the woman I loved so dearly..then crossed the threshold.

Once outside, I crossed my hands over my small breasts that hadn't bloomed still and texted Sherwin.

9:00 Pm. Me- Where are you?? I'm ready to go. My mom just disowned me. :(

9:10 Pm. Me- ???

9:45 Pm. Me- Sherwin where are you??

10:23 Pm. Me- What's going on?

10:46 Pm. Me- Babe..

11:11 Pm. Me- ...?

11:27 Pm. Me- Do you not love me anymore? :/

12:30 Am. Me- Sherwin...

"Come inside baby girl. That heathen ain't coming for you." My mother said, opening the door and arms for me. Running to her, I held onto her for my dear life and cried my heart out. I told you. Momma knows best."

***

Days..weeks..months..and years went by with no contact from Sherwin. Restlessly I called and texted him,with no avail. I didn't know where he lived so I couldn't show up at his house and check up on him. Your mind is a scary thing when your imagination is allowed to run wild. At first I thought something happened to him. Got killed, maybe. Then I thought that he went to jail. But both of those ideas were shot down, because I would have been able to search it up or seen the incident on the news. So finally, I landed on the idea that he simply didn't love me anymore. The stress of running away with me and starting new got to him. My mother's words never left his mind and scared him away. That's what stuck to my mind and haunted my soul everyday, driving me into a deep depression. There wasn't a day that I mourned our friendship. I fell in love with the devil's son. We indulged ourselves in sin. Then he left me with ashes for a heart.