Broken Cycle

Chapter Fourteen

Unfortunately, Grandma and Grandpa were out of the country at the moment. I felt like I had no one. And everyone I did have, I cut out. Laying in my bed, I noticed something I had on my wall. It read

"She stood in the storm and when the wind did not blow her way, she adjusted her sails." — Elizabeth Edwards

That was what I had to do. Adjust my sails. I'd already been through the storm. I called Carrie, hoping she didn't hate me.

"Hello?" She answered.

"Carrie," I said weakly. "I'm so sorry. About everything. You're the best friend ever and I completely just cut you out because I was mad--"

"You can stop babbling now. I get it. And I accept your apology. Do you wanna come over?" She chuckled a bit.

"Please?" I asked.

"Absolutely," she said and hung up.

I packed my things and went to her house. She let me in and when she saw my wrists and my face she ushered me inside. "What happened?"

We went to her room and I told her about Liam and how I felt depressed and alone. How I felt like I was just existing and not living anymore. How worthless I'd felt like I'd become. How sometimes not being here seemed like a good idea.

"Emma," she hugged me. "You're not worthless. You deserve to be happy, you hear me?"

"But why doesn't my mom care?" I asked.

"She does. It's just, Mason is 'picture perfect' and she relies on that. She... He's her safety zone, I guess. Not that you aren't a good person, but she doesn't know how to handle you. None of us really do. And that's not your fault, because you don't really know how to handle yourself," she said.

"When did you get so smart?" I laughed.

She shrugged. "Gotta brain."

I wiped my face and sighed. "So tell me about your life."

"Well, my parents are finally better. My older brother went to the army. And Ben and I are together," she said.

"That's great," I said. They'd be perfect together. "How'd it happen?"

"Well, he called and was asking about you and there was some stuff going on with my parents so he came over and took me out so we could both clear our heads because his parents' business thing has gotten extended. And then I dunno, we were there for each other and he's so sweet, kind, and considerate. I haven't mentioned Isaac to him yet because you're the only one who knows, but I think he'll be understanding," she blushed.

"Well, I'm glad," I said. "It's late, wanna get some sleep?"

She nodded and we went to sleep. I knew Ben and Carrie would be perfect for each other. They were both really genuinely nice people and they worked. But was it totally wrong of me to like him just a little bit? No, because it was just a crush. That was it. The feelings would go away. Even though I'd been feeling them for a few weeks now, they'd go away eventually.
****
I'm back! Two chapters after this and it's over! Or is it? Haha we'll see! Love y'all