Thug's Diary: part2

Chapter 26 "ill go crazy...."

Dont be acting shy up in this room like I make you nervous.

Imma take my time and do ya body right if you let me

Imma make you feel like a virgin again.

- Chris B.

Lala's POV

I arrived at Twan's house at about 8:30. I had popcorn and the "Conjuring." I hope he like scary movies like i do.

I knocked and he let me inside. The smell of pizza and hotwings hit me in the face. Damn!

me: smelling great in here.

Twan: i ordered pizza and hotwings.

What movie you brung?

me: Conjuring. You like scary movies?

twan: im a fucking fanatic!

me: *laughs* ill pop the popcorn then.

I finished the pop corn then came back. The movie was playing and Twan had a cover on the sofa snuggled up. I joined him and started eating the popcorn out the bowl.

This movie was fucking scary! Plus Twan had outstanding speakers in his house. When ever i jumped, he would pull me closer to him. I was kinda cool with it.

After the movie went off, a little later he got a knock at the door. These two guys walked in. One light skin and a dark skin with a little girl at his side.

Monty: i was just bringing Taylor home.

The little girl ran into Twan arms and then she stopped and looked at me shyly.

me: hi cutie.

She waved. She was adorable. Then i started thinking... Was this his daughter? Then i remembered he mentioned him having a little sister name Taylor.

Twan: This my sister, Taylor i hold you about. And these my home boys Pro and Monty.

me: hey there.

They said whats good then sat on the sofa across from us. Taylor took her bag and went upstairs.

Monty: So you and my boy together?

He asked taking out a blunt from his pocket that was already rolled. He put it to his lips and started puffing as he lit it.

me: oh, nah. Were just friends.

Pro: righhhht. You acting all shy and shit. We dont bit lil ma.

I laughted and looked over at Twan who was staring. I always catch him staring at me. It make me wonder what the hell hes looking at at times too.

me: Somethings wrong?

Pro and Monty laughed a little. But i.was kinda serious.

Twan: i cant look? I mean these are my eyes ya know.

me: well look somewhere else.

I looked down at my phone because it was vibrating. I pressed the red button to ignore it. It was Toren calling. I just texted back and asked what was up. He'll text back.

toren: Cant answer your phone because you with another nigga. Fuck it Lala, if you wanna be with other people then leave. We DONE.

That text message really hurt. I put my shoes on and left out the door without getting my purse and jacket. I was hurt. I wanted to get back at Toren so bad, i didnt relize how much i was hurting him. Who am i becoming?

Im madly in love with him!! Why was i being so stupid and selfish?! Now im about to lose the love of my life. Hopefully hes just talking. I pray that hes not serious.

I got to the house in about 20 minutes. I yelled out his name three times but didnt get an answer.

me: Toren? ..... TOREN! .....TOREN??

I got to the bedroom and he was packing a suitcase and smoking a blunt at the same time. I went over to him and started pulling on his arm.

me: your NOT leaving me Toren!!

toren: get your fucking hands off me La'shawn! We done. You proved to me that you happy with what you got.

I just stood there looking stupid and watched him pack. I couldnt believe he was leaving. I knew he was serious because he called me La'shawn. What have i done?

He moved passed me and left with a suitcase and a duffle bag. He pulled out the drive way and i watched him leave. Tears were all over my face. This was the worst pain ever...

"There be no sunshine if i lose you baby. And there be no clear skys, if i lose you baby. And just like the clouds my eyes will do the same if you walk away. Everyday it will rain, rain, rain, raaaain."

That night i called and texted Toren about fifty million times. He never responded. Even my imessage was saying he recieved the message, he just never opened it.

Twan called me but i didnt answer.

He texted me and asked what happened too. I know it was wrong to just ditch him like that but my head was all messed up. I feel like a part of me is dying without Toren next to me.

I listened to sad songs and cryed all night. This is what it feels like to be heart broken? It feels as if someone is constantly stabing you in the chest. I guess ill go see Tor tomorrow. I dont want her to come home and her dad isnt here. Shes gonna start asking questions.

It was killing me not to hear from Toren. I know if i call Chris, ill find out something.

Chris: whats up La?

He was talking in a sleepy voice. I didnt care though. I needed information.

me: *sniff* you hear from Toren?

chris: Lala stop crying, okay?

me: where is he!! Answer my question, Chris!

chris: look Lala, i know what your goin-

I hung up before he could finish. I put on my sweats, white tank, and flipflops. I grabbed my keys and left. I popped up at Chris house in 10 minutes and he lives 25 minutes away.

Chris opened the door and i charged in passed him. He yelled my name but i wasnt listening. I know Toren here. This is his bestest friend out of all of them. I checked in every room but still didnt find them. I flopped down on the sofa and folded my arms.

Chris came next to me and tryed comforting me.

Chris: look, he been telling me whats been going on. He say you dont even wear you ring. You sleep in a different room and you leave the house early and late. What nigga got you tied up?

me: its not like that.

chris: what is it like then? He got your head in the clouds. Whats his name?

me: Dont tell Toren nothing. I dont want him to have a clue about who he is. But his names Twan. He has dreads and hes a little darker than me.

chris: i know that fool. We went to school together. Toren had fucked his girl before so they never did really like each other.

I dropped my head into my hands. Fuck my life. Toren HAS TO KNOW EVERRRRRRYONE??

me: fuck Chris, i need to be alone. Ill see you tomorrow.

I left and didnt say a word after that. I cant lie, i thought about killing myself. If i cant have Toren then i dont wanna live. But i thought about my precious baby Erin. Tor is my life, i wouldnt dare leave her alone in this cold world alone after it happened to me.

Ill give anything to have my parents back. My mom especially. She was a go-getta. My dad was my hero. He hustled but he made sure we had the best. After he died, i went without a lot. My mom couldnt provide for three on her on. Things were hard.

All these sad memories played in my head and tears filled my eyes. I wipped my eyes then looked back up. I seen a truck ram straight into my from the side. "BOM" and screaming was all i heard.

I remember looking around and seeing people all around me and the car door smashed. I blacked out after that.