Thug's Diary: part2

Chapter 27"look what you done"

Is it bad that, i never made love.

No i never did it. But i sure know how to fuck.

Ill be ya bad girl. Ill prove it to you.

I cant promise that...ill be good to ya. Cause i had some issues.

I wont commit. Not having it.

But at least i can admit that ill be bad no, to ya.

Ya ill be good in bed, but ill be bad to ya.

- Wale

Toren's POV

I was just leaving Chris house to pick up Tor. I heard everything that Lala said. I was hiding in the living room closet and she didnt even know. Lala really hurt me though.

She the first girl i ever gave my heart to. When i finally fall for someone, they play me like this. That shit hurts. I cant even lie. I was almost to aunt cass house then i got a phone call from the hospital. What the fuck.

me: hello?

lady: La'shawn Gorben is in the hospital from a terrible car wreck

She in the operation room at this time.

I hung up the phone and called aunt cass, my mom, lele, and loya and the rest of the guys. I did 55 to the hospital. I kinda felt like this was my fault and hers too..

If we wouldnt have did each other these cruel these things, she wouldnt be in the hospital. I hurt her and she hurt me. I bet she was worked all up and crashed or something. I got to the hospital and saw everyone sitting around crying.

Aunt cass had Tor in her lap. Tor was just looking around confused. I sat next to Lele after i hugged and dapped everyone. Tor came and sat with me.

me: did the doctor say anything?

gunna: she still in the operation room.

I cryed too. I was hurt. I done put her in too much trouble. Shes been in the hospital twice, rapped and kidnapped. Damn!! I warned her what its like to be with a thug before we went anywhere with our relationship.

Almost everyone fell asleep in the waiting room. Even i fell asleep. About two hours later the doctor came out.

doctor: family of La'shawn Gorben?

me: thats us!!

I jumped up from my chair and we crowed around the doctor to see what he had to say.

doctor: well shes fine.

we all signed. Thank god shes okay

doctor: but i do have bad news. Shes hurt her left hip and leg really bad. She not walk in months. I consider having therapy. Shes also asleep. It may be days or even weeks until she wakes up.

Aunt Cass started breaking down in tears. Lola and Lele were too. The kids were just standing around crying. I guess it scared them to see us like this. I picked Tor up.

Lola: can we see her?

doctor: yes. But two at a time.

I didnt wanna go in yet. I might die if i see her in this condition. My mom and Aunt Cass went in first. Dede and Lola went in. Lele and Sam. Gunna and Krit. Adin and Destiny. Then me and Chris.

I walked in the room and saw her laying there in zombie mode. Tears dropped from my eyes. I felt bad to see her this way. She had tubes in her nose and mouth. It was a big patch on her forehead and she had straches and marks on her arms and face.

I pulled up a chair and just looked at her and cryed. Chris came over and put his hand on my shoulder. I looked up and he gave me a "hang in there" type of look. He left out with tears on his face.

I stayed the longest. Tor didnt come in because i dont want her to see her mommy this way. She way too young.

me: Lala baby im terribly sorry. This all my fault. Ill come home and back to you. I know i hurt you. I shouldnt have ever left! This shit was a fault. If i wouldnt have left, you wouldnt be laying here unconscious. I hope you forgive me baby. I love you! I love you more than life. You my lolipop. I cant lose you baby.

I wipped my tears and my eyes roamed her face. I kissed her all over her face. I hate to leave her here alone so im not. I pulled out a blanket and fell asleep on the chair next to her. Im gonna be here every step of the way with her. I was here from day one so im still gonna be around through sickness and in health.