Bury the hatchet?

Chapter 42

Chapter 42

Ambers POV:

I spent the night lying in my old bed listening to music and crying, when I was with someone else I managed to push the sadness away but I knew that being on my own would be dangerous. I probably got about half an hours worth of sleep that night as I just sat and cried whilst I traced the photo of Craig, Leila and I reminiscing about that day. I felt the baby kick a few times during the night, it was a lot lighter than normal; hell even he knew something wasn't right and he wasn't even born yet! I rolled over and placed the photo on my bedside table and just stared at it, seeing how happy all of us were that day and how genuine the smiles were made me want to get some sort of time machine and go back to that moment and just relive it all again.

I took a quick look at my phone "02:34" it read, there was nothing from Craig as requested but as much as my head kept trying to tell me it was better that he didn't text or call me in my heart I still felt empty and lonely and I couldn't help but worry about what he was doing now; what if he was out in the rough areas of town drinking himself to death? Or if he was just passed out on some street corner with no one really gave him a second look as they stumbled home?

Picturing Craig like that made me want to get in my car and drive around the city and see if I could find him but I knew I couldn't; this was what we both needed, time away from one another was what was best for us and the baby.

Eventually the sunlight began seeping through the curtains and I looked at the time on my phone "08:15", might as well get up and shower before Jenna wakes up I thought. I pushed myself so I was upright and up off the bed, I knew that in a few weeks I really would need help with standing up which was one reason why I was glad that Ronnie was back in a few days. I took clean clothes into the bathroom with me and stripped out of the clothes I was wearing dropping them into the laundry basket before stepping into the shower. I felt horrible that morning I couldn't remember the last time I felt that rotten.

Once I got out of the shower and changed into the clean clothes that I had picked out I slowly walked down the stairs and into the kitchen where I grabbed a breakfast bar out of the cupboard and made myself a cup of coffee all before I heard Jenna walk don the stairs.

"What are you doing up so early?" She yawned rubbing her eyes and sitting at the island counter pushing her hair out of her face.

"Couldn't sleep, but aren't Crystal and Jenn coming around here for 10 anyway?" I asked her glancing at the kitchen clock.

"Shit yeah! Thanks for reminding me!" She exclaimed suddenly waking up, I doubted that she'd be ready within half an hour but I let her rush upstairs and start to get ready whilst I sat on the couch and watched TV. Whilst I was waiting for Jenna, I received a text from Georgette saying that TJ and her would be back later that night so she wanted to make plans with me for the next day, I agreed and we arranged to meet up and catch up. I decided I'd tell her about Craig and I when I saw her. Bang on 10 the girls had arrived and we were waiting for Jenna to finish getting herself ready.

"So Jenna told us about you and Craig, how are you feeling?" Crystal asked sitting beside me on the couch.

"I'm coping I guess. I just want to do something which will take my mind of it so that's what were going to do today." I forced a smile onto my face, which the girls seemed to buy.

"Of course but don't bottle how you're feeling up, you can talk to us we'll listen." Jenn told me pulling me in for a long hug. I thanked them both after we pulled away, just as we heard Jenna rushing down the stairs.

"Sorry I'm late! But I'm ready now so lets go!" She exclaimed ushering us out of the door, she locked it behind us and guided us to her car, which was parked in the driveway. "So I've got us booked into my normal salon, they do like facemasks, pedicures and manicures ya know the normal stuff." Jenna explained as she drove down the street.

"Hope one of them will be able to do something to my hair, I have more split ends than you can shake a stick at!" Crystal commented looking at her reflection in the mirror on the sun visa.

"Hun your hair looks fine, but yeah they will if you ask them too." Jenna said. The rest of the car journey was spent with us singing along to the songs on the radio at the top of our lungs and just goofing around.

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"Well today was much needed thank you guys so much." I said hugging Crystal and Jenn who were about to get into Jenn's car. We'd all had our nails painted, I'd chosen to keep it simple and have them matching my hair (which had also been re-dyed and cut) with some pretty gems decorating them. We'd all had some really nice smelling facemasks too, which left our faces so soft!

Jenn smiled and put her hands on my shoulders "It's okay hun, just remember what I said earlier don't bottle it up, talk to us if you need someone to rant to, we'll always be here to listen okay?" I nodded. "Good well if any of ya'll fancy another day like today just text us and we'll be down!"

Jenna said that she would before the two girls left with a final wave and goodbye.

"Right, lets get you and the bub some food!" Jenn exclaimed after we waved Crystal and Jenn off. I followed her back into the house and sat on the couch whilst she scurried off to the kitchen.

"Do you want help?" I called through to the kitchen as I heard her drop a load of pans on the floor.

"Nope I'm good, just stick your feet up and rest!" She called back, I shrugged, I wasn't complaining. I switched the TV on and flipped through the channels until I settled on 'Cake Boss'. I reached for my phone, which had been left on the coffee table all day and looked through all my notifications where I noticed 6 missed calls from TJ and 2 texts from Georgette.

'Amber, call me!!!' the first read.

'Please Amber once you've seen this ring Teej!' the second read, confused I searched for TJ's number in my contacts once I found it I called it putting the phone to my ear. It rang 3 times before he picked up.

"Thank fuck!" He breathed.

"Err hi TJ, what did you want? I've been out all day and I forgot my phone." I explained.

"It doesn't matter about that now, just get back to your house as soon as possible please!" He begged which made me furrow my brow even more.

"Why what's happened?" I asked, some of the worst thoughts circling around my head.

"You'll see when you get here please just get here!" He exclaimed desperately before hanging up leaving me very confused.