Me and The Alpha (MAJOR EDITING)

Chapter 13

Jerry P.O.V

I was just waking up sober for the first time in awhile, last night i was thinking about what Frank said to me and decided not to drink. I feel good waking up sober like this, if only Juliana was by myside. When im sober i'll admit that i'm not as violent as for when im drinking. When im drinking heavily i am easily angered.

I dont usually remember anything i do when im drunk. But one time in the begining of our relationship i remember i was sober and i was with Juliana just laying on the couch. She wouldnt speak to me at all, what the hell did i do.? She wouldnt even look at me, so i finally pleaded for her to look at me and what i saw broke my heart. I saw half of Juliana's face covered in a big sore black and purple bruise that started at the top of her eyebrow and ended at the bottom of her jaw.

Oh my god what the hell is all i could think. Who in the hell would do this to her? Whatever she did wrong she didnt deserve this no matter what. Whoever did this is going to rott in hell. Im going to make sure they pay for what they did to her. This is not okay. The thought of someone hitting her makes my stomach churn. "Who did this to you?" I nearly shouted while inspecting the deep bruise apon her beautiful face.

I saw her lip start to tremble and she started to shake. She was quiet for a few minutes. "You did." She barely whispered. After that everything was inslow motion i froze, i didnt really do that to the girl i love... did i? And then everything hit me. (The night before the day in the flashback)

I had been drinking heavily that day because me and Juliana got into a fight, so she decided to leave for a little bit with her friend. I wasnt really a heavy drinker back then but i was desperate for something to take the pain away. 

I look outside in my driveway to see Juliana in the car with her friend Sarah and some guy in the car. What the hell who is this guy and why is he hanging out with my girlfriend? And then i saw Juliana giving Sarah a hug and then she gave the guys a hug too. By this point i was shaking with anger and rage. I cant believe this guy has is nasty arms around My girlfriend right now? im soo pissed if they dont leave right now im going to punch the guy.

I saw them leave and then Juliana made her way into the house. As soon as she stepped in the house she smiled at me. "Heyyyy How was your day?" she said walking over to me. But i started yelling and screaming at her about the guy in the car with her that hugged her. She looked at me like i was insane. She kept telling me that she doesnt like him like that and that im the only one she loves. But the alcohol and jealousy decide not to listen to her and before i know it im on top of her punching her over and over again, and im pulling her hair while she starts screaming and crying.After i think shes had enough i simply got up and walked away and into my room leaving her sobbing on the floor.

(The present day in the flashback) 

I look at her eyes and i dont see the same happy girl before i hit her yesterday. I was reaching in to hug her but stopped once i saw that she flinched. She thought i was going to hit her????? I feel like the worst boyfriend in the world right now. Guilt washes over me. I give her a long gentle hug. At first she was tense and then she relaxed once i rubbed her back. She stopped shaking and cried on my shoulder.

"Im so sorry Juliana..... Im the biggest asshole in the world, and the worst boyfriend in the world. Im sorry for putting my hands on you i didnt know what was happening i was drinking and..... " I said on the verge of tears. I was never emotional about anything besides Juliana. "It's Okay." She said. I pulled away from our embrace and looked into her eyes. "Not Juliana its not okay at all!" I said softly.

"Just...plea- please dont l-leave me, i promise i wont every touch you like that ever again and i wont drink ever again....please please please dont leave me." And then i couldnt hold it in anymore i cried and put my head into my hands. I cried even harder thinking about her leaving me. But i deserve it she should be leaving me after that i wouldnt blame her.