Becoming Kelly

HIs heart in limbo (edited version)

I couldnt keep this chapter up. It was stupid. So I rewrote the whole thing. Its longer and I even have some of the next chapter written. Should be up by next week. Enjoy my lovers.

Lots of supernovas, kisses, and of course love,

Aurorainsync <3

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Growing up I was sure about my life and my surroundings. I was sure that the Isle consisted of school, home, and the university my mom taught at. Those were the only places I ever went to. I was sheltered and unknowingly confined to these places.

Well I missed my bus stop one day when I was very young. I was enthralled in a comic book instead of looking out the window like I usually do. When I was done with the book, I looked up and found myself in some sort of city. I wasn't sure what that meant. I'd never seen this part of the Isle. Everywhere I looked I saw Buildings! These buildings were a lot bigger than the University.

When the bus stopped in front a extremely large building I took a deep breathe and left the bus stop with confidence. Just because I was on my own, I didn't have to act like it and I didn't have to act I didn't know what I was doing. I just knew that I was very curious about it all.

My father had taught me to enter the unknown always with confidence and never cockiness. so I had walked into Mace's home with as much confidence a person could possibly muster. After all, I wasn't sure what a party in America subjected me to.

 I wore casual clothing since I had a feeling a party of teenagers is not an extravagant affair like those held at the Isle. The Isle Affairs as we call it is much like a gala or ball. Revealing gowns and dresses adorn the bodies of most that attend. Its a lot like a gathering of snooty people showing off their assets and those of their partners. 

The loud music and the extremely dimmed room coupled with the hordes of bodies dancing made me want to take it in from afar and observe. Sigh. I hate how much more interesting human behavior actually is at times. I made my way through the mass of bodies until I found a hallway. Past the hallway small groups of people were dispersed throughout the room. They laughed and drank from their red cups.

I didnt know anyone in this room. I didnt know if that was a good thing or not. I mean I am a new student to this district. These things take time. But at the same time I doubt myself because I have obviously not put myself out there enough!

I had my heart set on finding Mace amongst the crowds since he was the only person I knew here besides womanizer Ethan. But the only face that was evident in the masses was Ethan's. Dang it! Where are you Mace?

My eyes landed back on Ethan. He wore dark denim and a snug white T-shirt. He had his arm slung over a short brunette with a really pretty smile.

"You shouldn't stare so openly. One might think your like any other bimbo after Ethan." I turn to the voice and see a short petite girl with blue streaks in her hair.

"Turning away from Hunky McHunk as we speak."

Her left eyebrow quirks up for a millisecond. Her face quickly masks itself to a blank face and I wonder whats left her so pale that-

I suddenly feel the presence of someone behind me. Followed by the warm breathe that skims the back of my neck. I smell the alcohol immediately as the person presses their body against me and their arms snake around my waist. I widen my eyes at blue haired girl. She just blinks at me.

"Your so tall for a girl. I never fucked a tall girl before." I recognized the voice and I melted. It's Ethan. A drunk Ethan but an Ethan nonetheless... No wait I have to get out of this. I push at his arms. But he doesn't budge. He lays his head on my shoulder. "You smell nice too. If all tall girls smelled like you and made me horny all the time like you do I would have had my share of them by now. But your the only amazon I want."

I move him off of me with more force."Excuse you I'm not a amazon. I'm at a reasonable height."

He looks up at the ceiling and takes a deep breathe. He lowers his head. He looks me in the eye. "I dunno. You look pretty tall to me."

"Your not a very nice person. And your head of SGS? How controversial." I say to him.

He scowls. "Nevermind. I don't wanna fuck you anymore. Your a bitch."

"Hey! Whoa! Ethan be nice to my guest." Mace pats Ethan in the back. Mace looks over at me. "Come over to my station little lady. I will provide you with über cool drinks. Don't let this clown bring you down." He pats Ethan's back once more and takes my hand. I let him take me with him. He hugs me to his side as he asks someone named Joey to make me something sweet. 

"Welcome to my party newbie. Don't let Ethan bother you. I want you to have fun. Ethan doesn't mean to harass you. He's drunk and he's going to be an ass to anything that moves until it sleeps with him." Mace says sincerely.

"How do you tolerate him?" I ask as Joey starts to add vodka to the juice mixture.

"He's been there for me at my worst way more times then I can count. He's never been this extreme but I owe him. He's like a brother."

"How did he get so crude?"

"How about this. I'll tell you the secret to how to get him to actually stop being 'crude' as you say."

"Okay, I'll settle. What's the secret?"

"Act indifferent to his crude jokes. He'll leave you alone and will want to know what's your deal. Just don't react. He wants you to react. He wants you riled up."

“Why?”

"I think its because he wants to get a reaction similar to Elizabeth's reaction. She would over-react when he would do something rude. I think 'll he wants answers in a way. He wants to know why she killed herself without actually asking someone directly. He wants someone to just say it.”

Mace was silent as we made our way to what looked like a secluded Gazebo. He sighed. I didnt know what to say. I mean I know Elizabeth a lot more then he does. But he isn’t exactly suppose to know that.

“I dont know if you know about Elizabeth.” Mace says as he looks down to his shoes. 

“She died a couple months ago. She drowned herself in the lake. We all feel responsible and feel like we could of helped her. But Elizabeth had a way of making people feel guilty for things that weren’t reasonable. I resent her for it till this day.

“ I feel like she is punishing everyone by killing herself. I just... Could she not see that we all loved her? We constantly had to pull all the stops for this girl. I just... UGHH!!! These are the years that shape us.

“ All the heartbreak and hardships make us better or jade us in the future. I never expected it to kill her. I mean, what was that?? Thats the kind of thing you see on the news. I never expected it to hit so close to home. To be her. To be my best friend’s girl.

Mace stops and looks at me hard. 

“Look I dont know if should be telling you these things. But your the complete opposite of Elizabeth. I think thats what Ethan needs. Someone who he cant really compare Elizabeth to since your so different from her. So I guess I need to know if your interested in him at all. It wont be easy. But If you could supply him with the moral support from a girl point of view, I feel like it would help.

“Uhh, Sure I wouldn’t mind helping.”

“Okay. So Ethan. He wouldnt speak to anyone for a couple weeks after her death.” LIE!!! He spoke to me! “I got him out of the flunk by taking him to places so he could have a jolly of a good time. But now thats all he does. I love the guy to death. I think if you show him that theres more to life then vagina and alcohol he could potentially take you up on whatever it is you want to offer him. Whether its friendship or a relationship, it’s whatever.”

“Why do you want to help me? Why hasnt any other girl broken through to him?"

“Because you have something they dont.”

“What is it?”

“Intelligence, beauty, and Ethan’s best friend A.K.A. me on their side.”

“And your positive thats all I need?”

“Hey, If I had a vagina and understood how women work I would of taken the guy out his flunk a long time ago. I’m sure you have what he needs.”