Becoming Kelly

A heart that is true

Ethan

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I stood in the bathroom for a while with a hard on. I was blown away by her. She turned me down and I did nothing to change her mind. This attraction is not one-sided. I could feel it in her lips and in her moan.

Why fight it though?

Why fight me?

Was Mace sabatoging all of this?

I turned and looked at myself in the mirror. I smiled at my reflection. I can confidently say she likes what she sees.

She's probably juat playing hard to get.

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MACE

I see Kelly sneak out of the bathroom looking disheveled. I hope she's ok. She was fine 5 minutes ago. But it only takes one quick sweep in the tiny cabin to notice that Ethan is no where in sight. I can't help but roll my eyes. Did that dweeb follow kelly into the bathroom?

I wait till kelly has her head buried in her bookback to cross the living room and into the restroom. I'm not impressed. He is by the sink, looking into the mirror. I close the door as quietly as I can.

That fucking little shit was bothering her.

"You don't get to kiss her!"

Ethan turned to me with a wide-eyed expression. He can't get out of this. I saw her leave this room totally not okay.  "I didn't kiss her." He scrambles to say.

"Ethan, you piece of shit! I know you like the back of my hand. I am not impressed. I know you kissed her. I know your after her. I know you like her. I am not stupid." I say to him in my best authoritarian voice. Ethan has never really taken any of my threats serious. But I mean business.

"Mace stay out of this." Ethan says, rolling his eyes.

"Why should I? You don't think I know you? You don't think I know this side of you. You like that she's giving chase. You want to chase someone. What happens when she doesn't want to run anymore-"

"I like her Mace."

"No Ethan. You may like her but you don't like her like her. You feel lust for the most part. Your interested in the moment. Your not interested in dating her. She deserves a guy who wants to date her. Not some idiot who wants to ravish her in the privacy of a bathroom"

"Okay Mace. Chill out. I won't kiss her anymore"

"You won't corner her either." 

"I will not corner Kelly anymore." I'm not an idiot though. I know he's just going to brush me off. Which is why I'm going to keep Kelly close to me during this trip. This asshole won't bother her again.

She deserves someone who has her best interest in mind.

At the end of the night, we had the guys all calm and collected. Apparently, the argument was over the rental they had. It had gotten double booked. Evan, Ethan, and Manny had gotten their deposit back. But the money they had at the moment didn't even cover a hotel room right now.

That's how expensive the area is at the moment. 

Which is why everyone reserved their cabin early in the summer. The prices are super inflated right now. 

We don't mind the extra bodies in the living room. We have enough space for ten people so we all fit together perfectly. 

I had Kelly in my arms. Ethan was right across from us. I saw his expression and knew immediately.

He is pissed.

I had her head on my chest. She was asleep. I can't help but feel a tug in my heart seeing her like this. She is so sweet and amazing. She deserves a guy who will fight for her. That guy just isn't Ethan.

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ETHAN

Kill me now. 

Literally, why me.

He has her in his arms. 

I am here. But I can't have her.

She is content in his arms.

I feel like he is definitely enjoying this. He's enjoying the fact that he can rub this in my face.

Everyone seemed snuggled or holding someone.

Even though Kelly has her head on Mace's chest, Manny has his head on her legs.

Maybe this is Karma. I planned on having a different lady in my bed every night. I planned on not seeing her. Fate had other plans. Plans to have me be alone. Alone with my thoughts and my emotions.

Claire has her head on Dustins's lap. She's awake but he's fast asleep. He is sitting up. I have no idea how he can be comfortable in that position.

The fake fight worked though. Kira is next to Evan. They seem to be having a whispered conversation.

I barely hear the conversation since I'm close to the fireplace and all I hear is the crackling of the fire. Claire seems to be hypnotized by the fireplace.

She's just as close to it as I am. She probably isn't paying much attention to Kira.

I look over to Kelly's form and I imagine the smell of her hair and the feel of her next to me.

You see, Mace doesn't get it. But I am truly not letting her go. Something happens to me when I look at her. Something has been happening lately.

I can't really describe it.

Almost as if the chemistry is too much for me to handle. It's driving me crazy and it's addicting. I'm not letting her go.

I look at her now and I feel a shit ton anger. I'm angry because the jealousy is getting to me. She has some kind of hold on me and I don't understand it.

Its nothing like what I had with Elizabeth. What I felt for Elizabeth was love. Or something like it?

Now that she is gone, it doesn't feel that way.

I have a problem with that.

I have no idea what anything is anymore.

Was my love for Elizabeth platonic?

Did Elizabeth know this???!?!?!?

No

I'm pretty sure I loved Elizabeth. Maybe it wasn't real love. Maybe it was puppy love. But it was really there. Because I still feel that puppy love for her.

How come I've never felt that kind of chemistry with Elizabeth? The kind of chemistry I feel with Kelly!

How come I've never felt this way in my life?

Why now?

Is what I feel for Kelly real? Or just another version of puppy love?

I look away from the fire and toward Mace. He looks peacefully and blissfully asleep.

I can't find sleep. All I feel is a stampede going on in my heart and butterflies in my stomach.

All I had to do was look at her.

Am I falling?