It's Us Against The World

Chapter 13

Darius POV

After going out with Nikki, I headed home. But when we got back Keke was gone. Momma said she went out with some friends, but why would she leave Nicole? Something is going on and I know it is. Keke must be hurting because I know her, she wouldn't just go out if she has company and she most likely wouldn't go out with her old friends that got her sent to that damn program in the first place because she's trying to get momma to let her come back home.

After searching around with Nikki and Maleak for hours, we came back home and waited for her to show up.

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I looked at my phone and it's two in the morning, I only checked because I heard a door close. I looked out the window and saw Keke walking to the house. My ma and pops went to sleep at nine or ten when I told them I would wait up for Keke.

Keke didn't even get to unlock the door. I opened the door and pulled her inside. She could barely stand. "Keke what the fuck man? You got us out all times of the night looking for you and you went to get drunk....and high!!" I shouted after pulling her glasses off to see her eyes bloodshot red.

"Stop fucking yelling at me." She slurred. She walked upstairs and we all followed her. She walked into her room and looked in the mirror. "You need to get your shit together, I know you hurting from whatever, but that's no excuse for going out and getting high and drunk!!" I shouted.

"You can't control my life Darius! It's my life, let me be happy and do what the fuck I want to damn it!!" She shouted as her face turned red. "What? You want me to let you throw your life away? I refuse to let you turn out like your damn mother!!" I shouted as my mother and father came and stood in Keke's doorframe.

"Well it's a little too late for that Darius! My life is over!!!" She shouted smacking everything off of her dresser. I grabbed her by her arms and held her against the wall. "It's not too late to change, I'm sending you to rehab. We have had enough of you doing this shit." I said staring her in the eyes.

"Why? You do it all the time! That's why I even tried it in the first place!!" She shouted. I let her go and realized she was right, I just don't do it as much and I can hold my liquor better.

"Don't put this on me because you don't see me running to alcohol or drugs when my feelings get hurt or when I want to just for fun!" I shouted.

"Well you can't help me because my life is already over." She mumbled. "You keep saying that, tell me, how the hell is your life over at sixteen?" I shouted growing frustrated.

She looked at me with tears in her eyes. "Because I'm pregnant!" She shouted crying. My whole world stopped and so did everyone else's. "What do you mean you're pregnant?" I asked shocked not even yelling anymore.

"I'm pregnant Darius, and I am so sorry. I don't want to have a abortion because I'm better than that and this baby deserves better than that. That's why I've been crying all the time Nikki. That's why I'm depressed, that's why I went out. I never meant to drink, I was overwhelmed and something snapped in me.

Don't leave me Darius, I can't do this by myself. I need you, and I know you told me not to be stupid, I know I'm a disappointment to this family. I know, I know, I know. But I'm trying to do better, I just don't know how. I don't want to go to rehab because I can stop, I just needed to get all of this off of my chest because it is killing me and eating me alive everyday.

I can't keep hiding secrets from everyone because that's pushing me to drink, that's putting me under stress. I just need somebody Darius and lately you've been too busy to talk so I went to someone else, and everything I looked for I had then things started crumbling and things changed he doesn't even know I'm pregnant. And I don't want to tell him, all I needed was your damn attention. Some of your damn time just to talk but you were always too busy for me and I needed you and I still need you and your still busy. You have time for everyone else but me.

When was the last time you asked me how was my day? When was the last time we had a real sit down? When was our last drop everything and talk? Our heart to heart! Yes uncle Tommy and auntie Ella are here, but they don't understand me like you do.

The last time you gave me some damn attention to tell you everything and to get things off of my chest was three years ago. You didn't stop and ask me why I did drugs or drunk alcohol, you didn't say come on Keke let's go talk. How do you feel? What makes you do this?

I started smoking because I thought we would connect again if I did things you did, that's why I started getting high and drinking. When you got mad at me for doing it is when you gave me some real damn attention. Yes you were mad but it was something.

I don't just want a hug and a hi and bye Darius! I don't just want to argue, I want you to be how you use to be. You shut me out when you started smoking and drinking and fucking all the bitches you wanted.

You didn't keep me out of trouble anymore, you didn't care anymore. You left me to fend for myself. To face heartbreak all alone. Why did I have to run to someone else for the attention I was missing from you? Why does it take me getting drunk and high and saying the words I'm pregnant to talk to you? To get your attention? Huh, because you can't lie if none of this would have happened then you wouldn't be listening right now. We wouldn't be having this talk! I don't want to be your little sister that your proud of that's so damn independent. I'm not independent because I grew up to be and chose to be, I am because you left me no damn choice."

I stared at Keke, and seeing her break down like this is breaking my damn heart. I pulled her up and held her in my arms as she broke down. I know she has been holding this in for a long time because the way she spoke to me and held onto me and cried.

"Can we have a minute everybody?" I asked looking at everyone who is so shocked. Maleak left, Nikki got in the guest room bed, and my parents went back to bed.

I laid Keke on the bed and laid next to her as I held her as she cried. "Keke why didn't you tell me you felt this way?" I asked damn near in tears with her. "You never listened! I tried all the time but you didn't listen and you kept telling me wait or hold on till another time. You didn't have time to listen to me anymore, you never wanted to hang out anymore. You weren't there, you were never there anymore." She cried.

I laid with Keke all night until she stopped crying. "Darius can I sleep with you tonight?" She asked sitting up. "Yea, come on." I said standing up.

I picked her up like she was a baby again. "For now on I'll be here, you'll have my undivided attention. I'm always ready to listen. I'll be here for you, and your baby." I said carrying her.

"Darius...I'm scared." She said shaking. "Don't be, I'm here. Plus it's normal for any sixteen year old girl who is pregnant to be scared." I said laying her in my bed. I got under my blanket with her, and she laid on my chest. I stroked her hair like I use to do when she had bad dreams when we were kids. I felt her weight shift on me, telling me she is sleep then I fell asleep after making sure she was okay.