It's Us Against The World

Chapter 24

Darius POV

I let Keke hold Princess and walked over to Nikki and laid my head in the crook of her neck and wrapped my arms around her waist, as she talked to her friends. This Jay nigga keep looking at my girl and mugging me like I don't notice that shit.

See if I just beat his ass or confront him, my baby going to get mad at me and put my ass in time out. A nigga get lonely in time out when Nikki his girl. But that's besides the point, I'm already on thin ice because of the Amber shit, so I'm ah play my hand and just show him who Nikki want, and it ain't his bitch ass.

"Baby let's step outside, we need to talk, like now. I got some shit I need to get off of my chest, it's been fucking with me for real ma." I whispered in her ear as I gripped her waist.

I lifted my head to see her response and she shook her head agreeing. I grabbed her hand and we walked out the room and outside, then we started walking down the street.

"Do you have something to say before I start? Because after I start talking I don't think I'm going to stop for a while." I asked to assure her what's about to go down.

My baby is already turning red and blowing out breaths to stay relax and trying not to cry. "I'm good, you go ahead, I'm ready to listen to what you have to say." She said. "Are you sure?" I asked.

She looked me in the eyes with tears in her eyes. "Darius I didn't want to hear what you have to say for the longest, I'm slowly getting over it taking it one step at a time. I'm trying to find some type of closure, and I think this is the way to find closure for myself." She said staring into my eyes.

I couldn't stand seeing her cry or near crying, so wiped her tears away before they even fell.

"What I was telling you about me loving you, none of that was a lie. I wasn't exactly trying to live a double life. Before I met you I was on and off with my first love Amber.

But when I met you, Amber was gone taking care of her grandmother, the whole time. I felt like Amber and I were falling off. I wasn't feeling her like I use to.

See the thing is, I did fall in love with you. But what me and Amber had was so damn complicated that I didn't know where we stood. I only told her I didn't know you because I know Amber will stay for the long run, I was afraid you would walk away." I said as we walked.

"You should've knew I wasn't going to just walk away Darius! I stayed by your side faithfully for a year and eight months. Where was I going to go?" She asked crying now.

"There's a lot of shady bitches...girls out there. They can smile in your face for two years or more, I knew for a fact that Amber wasn't one of those girls. I was just meeting you, everything with you was all fresh, all new. But I love you in a more different way than I had ever loved Amber." I said feeling myself about to crack.

"YOU DON'T LOVE ME DARIUS! YOU LOVE WHAT WE HAD, YOU LOVE WHAT WE HAVE, YOU LOVE PRINCESS! YOU STARTED LOVING THE FACT THAT I WAS PREGNANT! YOU NEVER TRULY LOVED ME, BECAUSE IF YOU DID THEN YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER SAID THOSE FUCKING WORDS. AND THE FACT THAT I DID LOVE YOU, AND THAT I DO LOVE YOU, EATS ME UP INSIDE BECAUSE I KNOW YOU DON'T FEEL THE SAME WAY!" Nikki shouted as she cried.

"You can't stand here and tell me I don't love you Nicole! I feel something for you that I never felt for Amber or for any fucking female for that matter. I didn't see that I been stopped loving Amber way before you ever came along!

I loved what we had, I loved our history and that's it. I had and have love for her, BUT I DO NOT FUCKING LOVE HER! I need you to listen because I fucking love you and you won't listen to that. I more than fucking love you Nicole! I'm in fucking love with you Renée Nicole Smith!