Dearest love,
Save me from this hellish nightmare I call myself.
Tear out the eyes you once loved, people say they're the exact same as my mother's.
Tear off my mouth and get it away, so then that way I won't say stupid things and fuck up so much.
Tear me apart limb from limb and bury me in a garden filled with flowers.
Surround my torn apart lifeless body with life. Surround me with the liveliness that I could never have.
Tear me apart so my parents can see what parts of them I have, what parts of me I hated because they didn't match well together.
Look at them and see if you see me in them.
I have my mother's eyes and chaotic mind.
I have my father's sharp tongue, but now it is useless.
I cannot keep living with my family, it's almost as if they had a child with their worst features.
That's why I don't believe in God. I was his mistake, and as I've been told- God doesn't make mistakes.
I am proof of that mistake, so bury me in the garden of Eden.
Surround me with life, I never knew what it was like to truly live.
Your's truly,
Her
