Love Letters || Nessie

7 - Falling

Nicki and I have been seeing each other for the past few weeks, going on little dates and whatnot. And let me tell you, it's much better than reading about her through a letter. I can hear her voice, and if she's sincere about what she's saying. I've paid so much attention to her lately that I can point a few things out it would take months for a regular couple to pinpoint.

Such as Nicki being insecure about her height. Which was why she always wear heels around me. It's cute to me every time I ask why and she stutters before changing the topic. And when we're out and about, it's just me and her. She doesn't look at any other girl or guy when we're around. It's probably because of what I am, but the next thing contradicts that. Nicki doesn't care about what I am. She hasn't asked for money, and even pays for things for me. She even mentioned that she hates being pampered. Not once has she brought up conversations about meeting other stars or famous people. We were only concerned in our private lives, which I felt really comfortable with.

There was also a lot of kissing involved. In privacy, of course. But we still kissed nevertheless. It was incredibly wrong, I knew it was. I had a boyfriend, and I was kissing another woman. But it felt so right.

And speaking of, Luke is barely home anymore. He always stays out late, doing who knows what. It used to be either at the studio with friends. But now he just says he's going out then leaves.

"He's obviously not making an effort to spend time with you," Nicki comments when I told her this one evening in my car. Her hand was on my thigh, rubbing small circles on it with her thumb.

I turned to look at her. "You don't think he's...cheating on me, is he?"

Unfortunately, that word wasn't foreign to me. I've been cheated on many times, and each time hurt me so much. Because I was convinced that they were the one, and I fell in love. Because I fall in love so easily. That's why Nicki's trying to tell me not to fall for her so easily. Yet, it's so hard not to.

"If the shoe fits." Nicki then pulled her hand away. "You're having an affair. We should stop."

"But what if I don't want to?" I murmured, leaning in close to her.

Nicki started to softly stutter as I leaned in more. "Jess, no..."

But I captured her lips in a soft kiss. And Nicki completely melted against me.

Luke's been suspicious of me going out so often, and he asks who I'm going to see. I tell him the truth, and say I was going out with Nicki.

"Nicki? Who's that?" Luke asked.

"Remember those letters I've been receiving? Yeah, she's the one behind those." I explained.

"Any why do you smile so much when you read them?"

"Because it's nice to read what fans say."

"That's why she personally delivers it?"

"Well, she wanted it to be special, Luke! There's nothing you should be worried about!"

"I'm just trying to pay attention to you and be a good boyfriend!"

I glared at him from the bed as he hopped on it in just boxers. I huffed and stormed out the room. He was making a big deal about nothing!

Well, it's not nothing now. I really was having an affair with Nicki, but I just can't help the way I feel about her! It's just...she makes me feel better than Luke ever had. Like I was a naughty teenager sneaking out to see their significant other. She buys me things and surprises me and acts so cute around me. And she's so different. There's this good aura around her from the way she looks at me, to her cute laugh, to the gestures she does towards me.

It makes not falling for her even harder.

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"Jess, stop!" Nicki laughed as I dug my fingers into her sides.

We were in her home for the first time together. There was nothing that came to mind for us to do, so we went to Nicki's apartment. I liked it. Not too small but not too big either. And it wasn't luxurious. It was perfect.

"No! I'm gonna tickle you until you can't breathe!" I giggled along with her.

Nicki looked so cute squirming around on the couch under me. "I can't...breathe!" She squealed.

"Are you sure about that?" I asked.

"JESS!"

I pulled my hands away and Nicki struggled to catch her breath. I smirked as she sat up and shot me a glare.

"I...hate you."

"You don't, do you?" I poked my bottom lip out in a pouty face.

Nicki began to smile and she crawled into my arms. "No, I don't. I never could."

"Good. Because then we would have a problem," I joked.

A silence fell between us, and I naturally bent down to kiss her when a loud BOOM! shook the house. Nicki and I jumped apart instantly.

The small woman peeked through the curtains. She swore to herself.

"It's storming outside," she told me. "It looks bad. Maybe you should stay with me."

I started to smirk at her. "Is that how you ask me to stay the night?"

"What? No! Well, kinda. But, really!"

Another round of thunder sounded, causing Nicki to squeal and slump against me. She buried her face into my stomach as I giggled and lifted her face up.

"Are you scared of thunder, baby?" I cooed.

"No!" Nicki blushed and looked away from me. "It just startled me, that's all."

"Yeah, sure--"

"And did you just call me 'baby'?"

"Maaaaaybe."

Nicki rolled her eyes. "I know you did. So, what's for dinner?"

"Dinner?" I questioned.

"Well, you're going to get hungry, I'm sure."

"Are you serious? You'll let me stay here?"

Nicki nodded, then moved so she was back in my lap. Her hand moved to the collar of my shirt, where she played with it. Her eyes lifted up to mine as I stared at her with such intensity.

The storm was long forgotten as Nicki kissed me. And it wasn't neither an innocent nor a passionate kiss. It was lustful. She wanted me as bad as I wanted her.

A/N: Proceed to the next chapter with caution...