CHAPTER 1
I never thought I’d find someone that I truly loved. When I finally did, I didn’t know how to act.
I had always been a quiet kid, never one to talk in public, usually keeping to myself. I got good grades, and was an overall good student, never getting in trouble, and if I did get in trouble for anything whether it was in school or at home, it was always something minor. Now that I’ve gotten older things are a little bit different. I’m still a good kid but I tend to put myself in bad situations more often. I just want to expand my life, expand the amount of people that I talk to outside of my town. I want more experience in the world, and that’s what I got when I found him. Alongside a whole lot of ugly.
School was such a drag. The same classes, the same activities, the same people. I wanted something different, I felt as if there was something missing in my life, or lack of. Every morning I’d get up, get dressed and head off to school, go to class, listen about something that I would never use again, lunch, go home, and sit in my room drowning myself in the music that escapes from the speakers. I was tired, tired of the same things everyday. So, I decided to change it up a bit.
One day I was sitting in class, bored out of my mind listening to Mr. Eli explain some stuff about the Civil War. I wasn't really paying attention at this point. I didn't care anyway, the guy gives us work that we don't pay attention to. We could be sleeping through the lesson and he'd pull us for study hall the next day to get the notes. He's pretty cool about stuff, but he's corny. Most of the class just laughs at his jokes to make him feel better about himself. His wife had past a few months back and we honestly all felt bad for him. We all tried to keep him somewhat happy out of the kindness of our hearts.
I noticed that there were kids whispering in the back. I wasn't sure what about, but being the nosey person I am I decided to listen.
¨ Do you have the stuff, dude?¨”One kid whispered.
¨Yeah, we’ll make the deal tonight at Jake´s. ¨ the other responded, a little more cautious about the volume of his voice.
¨Alright cool.¨ The first kid responded.
¨ I hope Jake knows what he's doing with this stuff.¨ What stuff? I mean, obviously drugs but what?
¨He’s got to. He's been making the stuff for years now.¨ Making it? I don’t understand.
“He better. I don’t trust anyone with making doves.” Huh?
What the hell did he mean by doves? There’s no way they’re literally making birds. I’m looking for something to spice up my life, and if drugs is what they’re talking about I want in. I thought about it the whole class before finally saying something to the two kids. They were standing by the door of the classroom when I tapped one of them on the shoulder.
He turned around and said, “ Oh, goody miss two-shoes. What can I help you with today?” His smart-ass attitude was something I always hated about him, but I still wasn’t aware of his name. Smart-ass it is for now.
“ Look, I don’t know what exactly you meant by Doves but whatever it is I want in on it. It seems interesting.” I said. They both gave each other a knowing look. A look that said, ‘we can have fun with this.’
“Oh sweetheart, you really don’t wanna be a part of this. It’s not good for someone like you.” The other boy said. I didn’t like him either.
“Seriously. I don’t care what it is I wanna have some fun. I won’t rat you out or anything no matter what it is.” They gave each other another look before smart-ass responded.
“Alright, fine. You want fun huh? Okay. You come by this address tonight, and we’ll show you.” He said, handing me a piece of paper with an address on it. I’m assuming it’s this Jake guy’s place they were talking about earlier. I guess I could stop by. I don’t think it would hurt anything.
I nodded. “ See ya, baby-cakes.” the other kid said. I haven’t figured out a name for him yet.
The bell rang and I walked off, curious as to what the day might bring.
I walked to my next class, science. This was the most boring class of the day. I didn’t like science, I never did. My favorite class was English, I loved writing. English and History were my favorite. They were easy for me, therefore they became the most fun. I walked in, and my friend Victoria was already sitting there.
“Hey, did you get that paper done? I didn’t understand it, I was hoping you had some of it done.” She was a friend that I’ve had for years, at least eight or nine. She was the kind of friend that only came around once in a lifetime, she was always there for me no matter how much we fought. And we fought a lot.
“No, I didn’t care to even finish the front of it.” I haven’t been doing my work lately. My grades had been dropping like flies.
“What’s with you? Usually you’re the one bugging me to do my work. Lately you’ve barely even picked up a pencil in class. You doin’ okay?” I guess you could say I’ve been depressed. I just feel as if there’s something missing in my life. My family doesn’t really worry about me. I never gave them a reason to worry about me, like I said I’ve always been a good kid. They wouldn’t suspect a thing if I went AWOL. No one would really. I have a good girl image in this town. This small, stupid town.
“Yeah, I’m fine. I’m just starting to loosen up.” I replied to her.
“Good job, you’re learning not to be such a hardass.” I laughed awkwardly. I didn’t know what to say, so I didn’t say anything. I didn’t say anything all class. It was the last block of the day and I was just ready to go home. The sooner I get home, the sooner I can get to that kid Jake’s house. I just have to let my parents know where I’m going. Not like they would truly care anyway. I kind of like it though, I have freedom to do what I want. I don’t think I could handle having really strict parents that watched my every move or like, checked my phone every night. I have my own privacy rights, and either my parents respect that or they just don’t care. I’ll take the ladder.
