I sit in the back seat wondering if it is all my fault that this has happened. I hear the sirens and I still have flash backs of the incident.
"Are you alright back there sweetie?" I hear the counselor ask. I nod my head yes and look back at the window. Watching as every house every car and every light flies past me. I get cold so I take my jacket and cover up and lay down in the back seat. I close my eyes and fall asleep.
I wake up to someone carrying me. It scares me and I scream. "It's all right I have you I got you" I hear a man say. He carries me into a house and lays me on a couch. He covers me with a blanket and I close my eyes and drift off once agin.
A couple minutes later I can hear a man and a woman talking.
"How old is she?" The man asks. "She is 6" says the woman. Wow "what happened to her?"
"She witnessed her father killing her mother and then her father tried to kill her but couldn't find her and shot himself in the head" Says the woman
"wow and she remebers it all?" The man asks in a questioning tone. "Well we aren't sure yet she hasn't spoken one word since we found her." Says the woman
"so she's in shock?"
"Yes"
1 am
I wake up screaming to the top of my lungs kicking and my body sweating. I hear the guy and the woman coming in tryin to calm me down. I don't stop as I feel the lady grab me and hold me tight in her arms. She is holding me and comforting me telling me everything is alright and that I'm fine.g.
I shake my head back and forth. I finally say my first words
"NOOO NOOO NOOO I want mommy mommy I want mommy" I say screaming and trying to stop but it keeps coming out.
"I know u do its all right" the woman brings me with her in her bed room and rocks me in this rocking chair rubbing my back and telling me it's all right . I finally fall back to sleep .
It's the next morning I wake up and walk into the kitchen I see the woman and the man. The man sits at the table reading a news paper and the woman is at the stove cooking something.
"Well hello sunshine are you hungry?" I shake my head no and walk to the front room to get my cloths to get dressed.
I grab them and walk to the bathroom and put my cloths on. After I'm done I get my doll and do the same to her.
Everyone thinks I'm stupid and that I don't know anything I think to myself but I'm not stupid I know what happened. Daddy killed mommy and now mommy and daddy are gone I'm all alone and it's my fault.
After I'm done I walk back to the front room and they ask me if I'm sure I don't want anything to eat. I shake my head no once agin.
The man ask me " you want to watch anything on tv?" I shake my head once more and just lay back down hugging my doll.
"Anna we have to take you to meet some people today." Says the woman
I have a puzzled look on my face. Her caring eyes tell me that she knows that I have questions.
"They're going to take care of you an you'll be going to school and meet new people. It will be fun" she says in an almost too happy tone.
I look at her like she's crazy "It will be fun" the word repeating itself in my head as she walks back to the kitchen.
The man walks In and sits by me "we're gonna watch some tv ok? It will be good to get your mind off of things." His voice deep and comforting.
I shake my head and raise my shoulders up indifferently.
"Sure I guess so" I think to myself and then he turns the tv on.
A cartoon is on he looks at me and says "what about this one?" He makes a funny face at me and it makes me laugh. I try not to but I just start to giggle and then he turns it again and people speaking something else was on.
"how about this huh? it's just like Dora right?" I start to laugh and he tickles me and I just start laughing so hard. I try not to laugh I try to stop to show I'm not enjoying any of it but how can I not enjoy it?!
It's time to go I have all my stuff ready and I don't want to leave. I like this family the man and woman are nice to me. But I have to we get in the car and we drive off.