"Follow your dreams Sean." I put my hand on his shoulder.
"But I can't leave you." Sean cups my cheek.
"It's okay. We're dancers, I guess we're not suppose to fall in love with each other." I take a step back.
"Alex I-" He starts.
"Sean, maybe wh...
Turns out, nothing is going on between Ken and Soni. Oh well. School is going to be the death of me. So anyways, this morning I woke up feeling upset. I woke up pretty late too. I just brushed my teeth and washed my face. I went to my closet and threw on a sweater that had a frowny face and high waisted gray skinny jeans with white converse. I put my hair in a messy side braid and just put on some mascara with moisturizer. I grab my phone and my backpack. I plug my ear phones into my phone and listen to my Bryson Tiller playlist. I walk to school with my head down.
I go straight to my locker and put away some things. Everyone seems so happy. Right now, I feel like everyone is just against me. I feel out of place. I don't feel okay. I feel like the world is just against me. I look at myself in the mirror. I look tired, really tired. I grab my small concealer stick and just cover up a little bit. Sean and I stayed up late FaceTiming. But that isn't the reason why. I just feel like everyone is tired of me. I grab the books I needed, and I was about to make my way to homeroom.
"Alexandra Daniels." I hear a voice. Mike.
"Ugh." I groan.
"Happy to see me?" He asks, smiling.
"No." I glare at him.
"Why not?" He makes a fake pouty face.
"We broke up like a month ago." I tell him.
"And so sad to see you move on. Still dating that dancer boy of yours?" He's referring to Sean.
"Yeah actually. He makes me more happy than you do." I get out of his way. "Now get lost."
I walk away from him and go to homeroom. Gabe, Sean, and Lily were already there. They were laughing and talking. I walked in and sat right next to Sean.
"Hey guys.." I said, quietly.
"Hey girly." Lily smiles. "What's wrong? SEAN WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY BEST FRIEND?"
"Babe, what's wrong?" Sean asks me.
"I don't know." I shrug. He moves his chair closer to mine.
"Alex.." Gabe says in a stern voice. They all hug me.
"Guys, seriously, I don't know what's wrong." We all pull back from each other.
"Well, whatever it is.. You know that we're here for you." Gabe gives me an assuring look.
-Skip School because it SUCKS-
I make my way to my locker at three o'clock. I put away my things and go straight home. Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. There isn't school tomorrow because we got Teacher In Service day. Sean, Gabe, Lily, Will, Josh, and I were planning on going to Universal Studios. Mom and Dad were going to a concert and Adrian and Adeline were back in their dorms.
My day was honestly okay. Everyone kept asking what's wrong and I told them that I didn't know. I wish I knew. I guess I'm just having one of those days where everything is just upside down. I wanna cry but I can't. I wanna scream but I can't. I shut my locker and walk outside and then walk home with Sean of course. When we get home I just stand in the kitchen holding my head with my hands.
"Cupcake, how ya feeling?" Sean twines his hand with mine.
"I don't know." I shrug.
"Looks like a special girl needs a special hug from a special someone." Sean pulls me into a hug.
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I let out a little tear. "I need your hug."
"Princess, what's wrong?" He asks, as he strokes my hair.
"I just feel like everything is going upside down. I just don't feel like myself." I stop crying, and breathe.
"Awh." He hugs me tighter. "Go sit down on the couch, I'll make you something." I nod and sit criss-cross on the couch with my phone. I look at edits of me and Sean on Instagram. They're so cute honestly. I wonder how they get all our baby pictures and Snapchat stories.
"Food for my baby." Sean brings a plate full of pasta.
"Awh, cute." I smile. I pick it up and start eating it. And here we go, Sean is taking pictures of me. "I'm not a piece of art."
"You're my piece of art." He winks at me. "Priceless."
"Haha no." I shake my head.
"Haha yes." Sean nods. "I can stare at you all day."
"You're adorable." I tap his nose.
"Oh stop it." He smiles.
Sean and I hung out for four hours until he had to go home. We were gonna see each other tomorrow anyways. As he left, I cleaned up the area. So before Sean and I dated, I use to always think of him as a brother. He was just always there for me. But there is always that one point where you think your best guy friend is like your brother.
Sorry I havent updated in a while! I'm like sick so I've been sleeping around, taking medication, and trying to get better. I hate being sick because I just get so irritated and I don't wanna do anything. Anyways, when I log on I see 3.6K reads. Wow... You people actually like me? Haha THANK YOU!!
