Fight For Something (Josh Ramsay Fanfic) (Mature)

Chapter 12 - What If...?

Chapter twelve - What If...?

*Faith pov*

I didn't talk to anyone yesterday at all. Not even mom. Cody didn't talk to me, thank god. I was trembling all day. Josh tried to talk to me but all I did was nod my head, shake it, or say yes or no. I stayed after school yesterday and did a work out. It helped get my mind off stuff for a while.

The bell just rang for lunch and I'm planning on talking to no one. No one, as in Josh. He's the only person I talk to anyways. If I do, I'd just wanna cry and tell him everything.

I hurried out of class and to my locker. Where do I go? Maybe, I'll just sit in the cafeteria. I put my books in my locker and it scared me when Cody came by, stopping at my locker.

"Hey." He said sweetly, kissing my jaw line. My heart is racing so fast, I think I might die right here.

"Hi." I said. I shut my locker and attempted to walk away. Cody stepped in front of me.

"What's the rush?" He asked, taking my hips. The halls are full so it's not like he can do anything but I'm still scared shitless. He kissed me and I didn't kiss him back. His hand ran down the side of my body and he squeezed my ass.

"No PDA Cody." A teacher I don't have said, walking by. Cody pulled away, not taking his hands off me.

"Yes sir Mr. Colt." He smirked at me. "I'll see you in Math." He whispered. I realized I was holding my breath. As he walked away, I took a breath and speed walked down the hall.

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I spent lunch alone in the back of the cafeteria. Cody was at his table with his friends. He smirked at me once and I just wanted to run away and cry. There was no sighed of Josh.

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I stayed after school today too and ran around the track for half an hour. I take my time in the change room too. I shower for as long as I can then change. The rest of my day was boring. Mom wasn't home until late again.

- Next Day -

I woke to my alarm from another shitty sleep. I had a nightmare. It was Cody just doing that exact same thing to me. I didn't really sleep after that. I mostly cried.

I rolled off my bed and got dressed. I didn't feel like doing my hair so I just threw it into a messy bun. When I finished dragging myself around upstairs, I went downstairs. School doesn't start in a while but I already wanna get out of this house. I didn't say bye to my mom. I grabbed my bag and slipped off my shoes, walking out the door. I started walking the longer way to school, the way through town.

I wonder what life would be like if I had good parents. My dad wouldn't have left. He wouldn't have beaten me. He wouldn't have drank. Mom would be happy. We would have money. They would love me. But if all of this shit wouldn't have happened, I wouldn't have opened up to Josh. I probably wouldn't have talked to him because maybe I wouldn't have sat under that tree. Maybe he would've been just another boy that was cute and interesting. I would still be friends with that bitch, Kat. I would be a whole different girl.

I made it to town. There's a cute little coffee shop, bakery, book store, pizza place and many other petit places.

I wonder what it would be like if I killed myself with those pills. Would there even be a funeral? No one would miss me. Dad would've probably stayed and used mom as a punching bag. No one would miss me. Everything would be pleasant. I would be with my grandparents, the only people I loved and love. Cody wouldn't have... Touched me. I totally should've killed myself when I had the chance. My whole life is bad luck.