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Chapter 1

Holly's POV

"Hurry up we are going to be late!!!" Mum shouted up to me. I really didn't want to go back to school. Easter break went by way too quick but at least i only have exams in two weeks then I'm  done with college. I threw my bag on my back then walked down the stairs to the car. I got in and grabbed my iced latte out of my bag to give me energy for the day. "Thanks mum." I said in a groggy voice. Mum started up the car and laughed at me. We set off for school in a hurry trying not to be late. The closer we grew to the school the more excited I got. The only thing I was looking forward to was seeing Matt and Alexis. I haven't seen them all holiday because they've been away. I love the twins, they're my best friends and I miss them.

We soon pulled up at the front of school and I said as I hopped out of mums car "Thank you, have a good day!" Mum replied with a nod then drove off. I'm glad that mum is so chill with me. It makes up for my non existent father. I was starting to over think but that all stopped when I saw him. There by his locker was Matty. His hair was ruffled as per usual and his shirt buttons were only done up half way showing his bare chest. I was about to walk over to home when he shot his head up and stared at me. A big smile stretched across his face and he strode toward me instantly wrapping his arms around my waist and lifting me up. I squealed in response and wrapped my arms around his neck. He put me down then started to make out with me. I loved being with Matty and the way he made me feel but for some reason I don't really like the kissing part. Some times I feel like he's trying to eat my face. I don't like the sex much either, it feels so forced and sort of...wrong? I want to love it but I don't. It's rather the opposite actually. I pulled out of the kiss leaving him pouting. I nudged him then told him "Save it for later." Why oh why would I say that. His face lit up and he nodded. Now I have to fuck later well done Holly. I walked over to my locker and out of the corner of my eye I saw Alexis walking down the corridor away from where I was.

I slammed my locker shut and ran after her. When I reached her I threw my arms around her waist and hugged her tightly. This took her by surprise but she instantly held onto my arms and rested her head on mine. "I missed ya." I said quietly. She squeezed my arms then replied "I missed you too." I didn't want to let go, I wanted to make up for all the time we've spent apart. But after a minute or so, Matty came up behind me and slapped my ass. Alex instantly knew who it was and what they just did and pulled my arms away from her then started walking off. Matty pulled me to his lips again and tried to start making out with me but I felt bad for Alex and the next thing I knew I was pushing Matt off me and chasing after Alex. "Al wait up!" I called out to her but she just ignored and kept on walking. I started running as fast as I could and once I reached Alex I pulled her back by the shoulders and asked out of breath "Where are you going? Why are you ignoring me?" She frowned then spat back at me "You and your bloody PDA. Try keep it on a minimum around me please." She wriggled out of my grip and went to walk away but I grabbed her hand before she could. And that was it. That did it. That changed me. Forever.

Suddenly I felt weak in the knees. I couldn't say or do anything. It was like a spark. Her skin felt so soft in mine. And our hands fit together like the pieces of a puzzle. We stared at our hands in silence for a good 3 minuets until I heard Matts voice behind me "There you are! I've been looking all over for you, why'd you push me away like that huh? You better make up for it tonight." He smirked at me, trying to flirt with me but I was too focused on Alex. When Matt said 'tonight' I saw Al flinch and I didn't understand why. But before I could say anything Alex removed her hand from my grasp and walked off. I watched her walk away and noticed so much more this time. Her hips were swaying from side to side and her hair followed her slowly and gracefully as people brushed past her. "Why were you holding hands with my sister?" Matty asked curiously. It then hit me. Sister. And not only that,Twin. I turned my attention back to him and said "It's a long story I'll explain another time" He nodded then roughly grabbed my hand. It felt so wrong compared to Al's hand. I tried to suck it up then said "So can I come round yours tonight? I can tell my parents I'm sleeping over with Alexis?" His face lit up and he nodded with a smirk just before kissing me. I walked away from him into my lesson and he went the other way. I just need to forget about Alexis and how her touch made me feel.

At break I went to find Al but she was no where to be seen. I tried again at lunch but I still had no luck. By the time it was 3 o'clock Matt was getting really needy. I called my mum to tell her that I was sleeping over Al's and she gave me the okay before telling me how her day was. After I ended the call I turned to Matt who was pouting at me. I sighed then said "She said okay." He pulled me close and pressed his lips against mine. I kissed him back considering I had been ignoring him all day trying to find his sister because I couldn't stop thinking about the way I felt when we touched. I decided that the best way to forget her was to focus on Matt-My boyfriend. I pulled away then whispered "Why don't we take this back to yours?" He smirked then lead me to his car. I sat in the passenger seat then Matt sped off to his house.

He unlocked the big oak door to his house then pulled me in. He shut the door then threw me over his shoulder and ran up to his room. He threw me on his bed after shutting the door. First we started to undress then the next thing I knew we were fucking. But I blacked out. I had no emotion on my face, I wasn't moaning , I wasn't doing anything. It was almost as if I was in another world. Until the door opened...it was Alexis.

"Hey Matt do you have my..." she started to speak but instantly froze. I snapped back into reality and shot my head to her. Matt kept on going ignoring his sister at the door. I looked into her eyes and saw so much I've never seen before. I looked back at Matt and suddenly I didn't like it. I never really liked the sex before but now it just felt uncomfortable and so...wrong.

I turned to look at Alex but she had already moved on. I opened my mouth and said quietly "Stop." He moved his head up to face me then furrowed his eyebrows. He smirked then started going harder thinking it would arouse me when in fact he was actually causing me pain. "Ow no stop." I said again a bit louder but he just kept going. "You're hurting me!" I said loud and clear as tears started falling down my face. He suddenly realized what he was doing and pulled out. He looked at me with fear and went to say something but Alex burst in out of breath. She quickly ran to me and pulled my naked body into her arms. I didn't react at first but then Matt placed a hand on my shoulder which made me flinch and cling on to Alexis. Al squeezed me then said to Matt "What the fuck did you do to her?!" I heard him pull on his underwear before saying "I didn't know I was hurting her!!" I replied through my sobs into Alex's chest "But I asked you to stop." Lexi gave me another squeeze before picking me up. She held me in her arms like a baby and carried me away to her room. She put me in her bed and put some clothes on the bed that I could put on and she walked out the room again. I heard her start shouting at Matt "What the fuck is wrong with you?! She even asked you to stop! Why?! How could you do that to her?!? She's my best friend for fuck sake!?!?" It suddenly went silent after a clapping sound. I heard Matt say low and quietly "We both know she's more than that to you." What did he mean??? Alexis stayed quiet then said after a while "Excuse me I need to go and look after my best friend. You stay away from her until she comes to you or I swear to god you'll regret it." I had never heard her speak so seriously before, it was weird. A few seconds later Alex walked in and shut the door behind her instantly. She turned to me and sighed as she saw I still hadn't got dressed. She pulled the covers off of me then pulled a baggy top over my head. She went to put some shorts on me but her face dropped and she ran out of the room. I was so confused, why was she so terrified at the sight of my vagina? She then ran in with a wet flannel, toilet paper and a towel. I looked at her confused but then realized what she was terrified of. I was sitting in a pool of blood.

She lifted my bum up and slid the towel under me. She went to open my legs but I resisted to which she responded panicked "Please I need to find out where the blood is coming from." I slowly opened my legs and she started looking inside me. She wiped up the blood with the flannel and paper until she found the blood source. She closed my legs and got a sanitary pad out of her draw. She put it on some pants then handed the pants to me. I thanked her trying to hide how embarrassed I was. I quickly slid on the pants and lay down. "It was coming from the opening. I think you must've started your period early because I know you had it 2 weeks ago." I was impressed that she knew that and replied "Oh okay. Thank you. I'm sorry you had to deal with this." Alex laid down next to me then replied "Nonsense, I'm not going to let you get treated like that. oh and um on that topic I told him not to come near you, until you go to him." I quickly rolled over and flopped my arm over her body holding onto her waist. She put her arms around me and gave me another squeeze. I thought for a while about Matt and when I could forgive him. I pulled away from Alexis and said as I stood up "I'm going to go talk to him." Her face dropped but she looked down and just said quietly "Okay bye." She looked so sad. And then I knew my decision.