Entangled in a marriage

(14) Making some mental points.

                 

Sanjana:

Ok,its 2 days since we even had a conversation.He went early in morning before I could wake and the next morning,I would find myself asleep in my room when I was sleeping on sofa in night.

This time,I lost my cool.What does this mean?Does he not want this relationship?Then why did he ignite hopes.Enough.Now,its his time to worry.

I till then decided to complete my remaining half ppt.I heard the door open and saw Raj coming.But I think,he did not see me as I was sitting at a corner of my room.I decided to talk to him after completing my work.

Suddenly,I heard cries.Only me and Raj are there.I am not crying,so is it..?I ran into his room and saw him crying.

But wait!He had my diary but before I could question him,I went to him and he hugged me tight and cried his heart out.I could never think,Raj,a ruthless CEO,could cry like a baby.I told some soothing words and asked him the matter.

He-"First tell me Sanjana.Do you love someone?"

I-"Umm,I mean I like you..."

He-"No,I mean someone else before?"

I-"I don't know.To be frank,I was attracted to my first love,Nikhil,but then we broke off.But why?"

He did not answer.

I-"You read my diary?"

He looked away and nodded.

I-"So much time has passed and I have forgotten him.Wait,are you still insecure?"

He-"No,I am not.In fact I have full trust already.Its just that.."

I-"Its just that?"

He-"that..."

I-"Wait,are you gay?"

He for a minute forgot his mood and looked at me with his anger glare towards me.

I-"Oh no.I did not mean to say that.Uhh,back to point 1.Its just that..."

I tried to change topic.

And made a mental point:

1.    Do not speak without thinking to Mr Raj,my husband.

2.    His glare is enough to scare life away

3.    He is nervous when he is scared

4.    And right now,he scared the hell out of me by giving me glare when he was himself so nervous

He-"I loved someone else."

I gave him a cold glare.Before I could say,

He-"Let me complete my sentence.I loved someone else before.Then,she left me."

I did not say anything.

He came and took my hands and said,"Why are you not speaking?Please say something."

Oh !So sentence is complete but what am I supposed to say.

I-"Don't get me wrong.But how must I react to this?I hope you don't expect me to be like,"who was that girl?" and something they feel insecure.Look,we both are right now in the same path.Even I trust you."

He-"You mean you have no insecurity."

I-"No,atleast not now.Until she does not interfere in our relation."

He looked calm.

I-"So you cried for this reason?"

He-"No way!I just remembered her.The moments and everything.Because of her,I thought all girls betray."

I-"Who told you to try all."

He looked at me shocked.I was like taste your own medicine.He told me on first day.

He then smiled.

Atleast for now,I have learnt first to clarify doubts.If I would have not done it,I would have never known what he is tensed about.I would have rather taken the situation in negative sense.

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