A Fatal Passion Forged In Black ~Motionless In White

~ Chapter 18 ~

Ricky's POV

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For the rest of the day, she lies in my arms and well fall asleep watching horror movies- that is until her roommate comes in screaming like a maniac. She seems pretty cool and I can tell that her and Abby are really close which makes me happy. At about 2:00am, they practically shove me out of the door so they can get their 'beauty sleep'. I give Abs one last kiss goodnight and head back to my dorm. It's lonely as fuck here even though I've got an okay roommate, it's not the same without Abby. Hopefully, I can convince her to move into an apartment with me someday. Hopefully sometime soon.

I fall asleep, dreaming of how my life would be spending every moment of it with Abigail. It really fucking sucks being without her, god I sound clingy. I'm not clingy.

The next day

Abby absolutely refused to let me drive her to work today, so I guess I'm going to class. Great. I bump into Ryan on the way to Literature and he gives me a glare.

"What's your fucking problem man?" I ask him angrily.

"So what, you're too busy spending time with that fucking cunt over me, that's fine. Do what you want," he spits and I feel anger boil up inside me.

"What the hell did you just call her?" I remark, my voice laced with venom and he smirks at me.

"Well, you tell me. I mean, it's not like you used to call her that everyday or anything," he says. It feels like someone punches me right in the stomach, I have absolutely nothing to say to that. He's right. No matter how much I don't want to admit it, he's completely right. I can't justify what I did to her in the past and will never forgive myself for it, but right now, I will not stand here and let him talk shit about her.

"Listen you fucking douche, you don't have to remind me about anything but I swear to god, if you say one more word about her Sitkowski, I will put you in the motherfucking ground. Got it?" I tell him and he just scoffs. I turn on my heel and pull my cigarettes out of my pocket. Fuck class today. I place the cancer stick between my lips and light it. I take a long drag and as the smoke fills my lungs, I feel better. I wish I would have beat the shit out of his smug ass face. But I couldn't. Abby would be so disappointed in me and I think I've already disappointed her enough in the last several years so..yeah.

After taking the last drag from my cigarette, I squish it under my shoe and head to my car. It's only 3:30 now, so I guess I'll go get some food before Abby gets off in an hour and a half. She mentioned something about looking at cars today. I'm completely fine with driving her wherever she needs to go, but whatever makes her happy makes me happy. I pull into Applebees and get my seat pretty quickly. I order water and some wings and wait patiently. I stare off into space thinking and almost jump when someone sits down in front of me. When my eyes meet her's, I'm left completely speechless. It's my ex-girlfriend from high school, Athena. Absolutely wonderful.

"Hi Ricky," she says sweetly and I roll my eyes. God I hated her, I only fucked her a couple times to get my mind off of Abigail but she got clingy and we were together for a couple months. Well, that is until she cheated on me with Ryan. What are friends for, right?

"Athena," I say dryly, not looking at her.

"Long time no see," she says, trying to be seductive but only making me feel sick.

"What a shame," I say sarcastically and she laughs.

"C'mon, you know you missed me," she says

"Is that so." She doesn't respond but laughs again. God her laugh is annoying.

"So, what have you been up to lately?" She asks trying to make conversation, but I obviously have nothing to say to her. Well, I have a couple words to say to her, but they're not very good, so I'll just keep them to myself.

"Stuff," I say staring into my drink.

"We'll there's not very much else to do with out me is there, honey."

"Don't call me that," I seethe and take a sip of my water.

"What do you say we give 'us' another try, hmm?" She says and I nearly choke to death. Which actually sounds better than being with her but oh well.

"You know what, I'm good. I have a girlfriend,"

"She doesn't have to know. Who is she anyway?" She asks and I don't really want to tell her because of her reaction. I've already been pissed off enough today.

"Abigail Sola," I reply. She laughs hysterically and I ball my fists up under the table. Deep breaths.

"Wow, if you didn't want to get with me that much, you don't have to lie about it. Now, do you actually have girlfriend?"

"Abby is my fucking girlfriend and no, I don't want to fucking get with you so just fuck off," I respond and she seems a little taken back.

"Are you actually being serious? That diseased little slut? The little piece of shit you used to hate in high school? Damn, Olson, are you honestly that desperate?" She states and for her sake, I hope she shuts the fuck up so I don't rip her hair from her fucking scalp. But of course, being the bitch she is, she continues.

"You're not actually in to her right? Is this like some sick joke where you pretend to love her and tell her everything was fake? Oh my god, that's genius! You should record her face for me! That little bitch deserves everything she has coming," Thats it. I see the waitress coming back with my food, but I can't be in here any longer. I throw thirty bucks down on the table and storm outside, and of course it follows me.

"Listen bitch, don't you dare talk about her like that. I actually am in love with Abby. I am madly in fucking love with her and always have been. She is the most beautiful girl in the world and deserves someone who loves and respects her. Hell, I may not be the nicest guy in the world, but with everything in me, I will love each and everything about that girl every damn day for the rest of my life. She has been put through so much in her life, things that a little ignorant bitch like you would never understand. She didn't deserve any of it but some how she managed and now shes the strongest person I know. She may not have much, but she will have someone to love her until the day she dies, but you? You will have nothing. Just another bitch on the street looking desperately for some sex from the next poor guy you find because no one will want you. At the end of the day, nobody wants to be stuck with a clingy, bitchy girl. So go live the rest of your fabulous life, and stay the hell out of mine." And with that I walk to my car and start the ignition. I lock the door just in case she tries to pull anything. She runs up to the car and slams her middle fingers on the window.

"Fuck you Rick Olson, and your little bitch!" She screams and I laugh to myself. I contemplate on whether or not to run her over with my car....nah better not.