I Could Never Forget Us

Chapter 17

--- Addy's POV ---

When I woke up it took a few seconds for me to adjust to my surroundings, the sun was high in the sky signifying that it was afternoon and I was still fully dressed, there was also an arm layed across my waist and someone's head was buried in my shoulder. I remembered the night before and recognised Alex's long fingers when I looked down at the hand holding me to his body, this made me smile and I closed my eyes again relaxing into his arms. I'd slept really well so I let my mind wander instead of going back to sleep, being on good terms with Alex again was a relief it meant that the rest of my stay would be a lot less tense and I would be able to enjoy it more. I don't know what had made me kiss him the night before, I guess it was just my happiness at us making up flooding out. Then Lucas cropped up in my head, I'd kissed Alex twice since he'd left and hardly even thought about the fact that I already had a boyfriend. Maybe Lucas' lack of affection for me was what had led to me kissing Alex without a guilty thought, or maybe it was something else I couldn't admit to myself. But even though he didn't treat me as well as he could, he didn't deserve to be cheated on. I decided I wouldn't tell him because I told myself that things would be okay when I got back to LA like before, the buys would go on tour and Alex would forget about me again. We'd all just go back to how our lives where a month ago.

Eventually Alex started to stir and as he woke up he went through the same adjustments that I did, his breath tickled the back of my neck as he yawned making me shiver.

'Sorry I didn't mean to wake you' his voice was gravelly

'I was already awake' I rolled onto my other side so our noses were almost touching 'I just didn't want to wake you up'

'Thanks' he rubbed his eyes 'Are you feeling a bit happier?'

'Yeah' I nodded 'Are we okay now?'

'If you're okay with us being okay then I am too' he said

'I am' I replied

'Good' he smiled

His hand moved softly up my spine to between my shoulder blades pushing us closer together, I knew what was coming next and despite my thoughts from just minutes before, I didn't pull away when he kissed me. We'd gone five years without seeing each other then spent the last two weeks hating each other but as soon as we made up we were kissing, it made no sense and it was wrong but neither of us wanted to say anything. We kissed for a few minutes, tongues gently stroking, and then I pulled back slowly not wanting to get too caught up in the moment. We didn't move until we heard Alex's door shut meaning someone was looking for him.

'Shit pretend to be asleep in case they come in here' he whispered frantically

I closed my eyes tight and kept my face hidden in his chest while he rested his head on the arm that wasn't on my waist. Two seconds later the door to my room opened quietly and someone came in, stopping beside the bed.

'Alex' Jack's voice hissed 'Alex wake the fuck up'

'What?' Alex pretended to wake up

'Are you going to explain what is going on here?' Jack asked

'She was upset last night after I talked to her so I just stayed to make sure she was okay' Alex replied quietly 'You know she gets nightmares and stuff'

'This looks like more than making sure she's okay' Jack's voice got louder 'You're all cuddled up together'

'Dude quiet or you'll wake her' Alex hushed him 'I promise you that's all it is'

'Fine' Jack relented 'Well we've got a meeting with the crew in an hour at Evan's house so get ready Rian's driving'

'Okay I'll be ready' Alex said