Lost in Love (Formerly known as We Can't)

The Forgotten Night

Rey's POV
I woke up the next morning still confused. For no reason at all, I still found myself crazily in love with Finn. Than again I had that voice in the back of my head, saying "you can't love him. You'll only get hurt."
Was this fear? Was this what Luke was talking about last night? Was I own the path to the dark side? Those were just three of the hundreds of questions. I began to have the fear that I would turn, all because of some silly young love. And now I'm fearing. I had to let it out. There were two choices. The easy and the hard way. The easy way was to run. Dad did it. So, I guess it couldn't be that wrong. Or I could talk it out with someone. Who? I didn't know. Dad was too against it. Mom, well I didn't know her, and plus she's kind of dead. Leia, i don't know, it's just really hard to have a heart to heart like I would with Dad. There was only one basic speaking option who could have a better idea of how Finn felt. If that didn't work, I'd run. Far away. Where no one would find me. I began to think about who I was going to. So yeah. I'm going to be running.
I walked up to the Solo apartment. Please let it be Han who answers. Please don't make it be Leia. I knocked on the door and watched to knob turn over slightly to the ground. It wasn't Han. It wasn't Leia. It was Kylo Ren. His mask was gone, showing all of his short curls. Thank goodness he is my cousin. If not, I'd probably end up falling for him.
"Kylo Ren?" I said shocked, "what are you doing here?"
"Ever since my home blew up," he said, "my parents said I could live here if I worked to find the light. By the way call me Ben."
"Oh, well ok? Is your dad home? He said he'd help me with piloting." It was kind of a lie. Yet Han did tell me he'd help me with piloting anytime I wanted.
"Daaadd!" Ben yelled. Han came towards the door.
"What now son?" He ask.
"Rey's here."
"You ready kid?" He ask me almost seeming to have overheard the lies I told.
"Yeah."
Han and I walked out to the street.
"So you wanted to talk?" He ask.
"I just need to know how Finn feels and I figure," I take a breathe, "your the best person to ask."
"I think Finn is slightly hurt, however I think he will get over it."
"Hopefully."
"He wants you. And who wouldn't. But he knows he can't, making him want you more. Trust me when I say when you can't have something you want it more."
"So what should I do?"
"Give him distance. See if he comes back. If you two truly have something, it will work out on its own."
"Ok. Thank you."
"Now how about a short piloting lesson?"
    Han and I had a short lesson, like just over 20 minutes. Afterwards, Han walked home, however I lied that I needed to go to the grocery store and pick up something. I actually wasn't. I made sure I had my id and walked into Indiana Bar. I may or may not have ordered a few drinks, slowly becoming hung over. I started to walk home, yet remembered my dad was home. He couldn't see me like this. As hung over as I was, I made the dumb choice to visit Finns house.
   I knocked on the door and he opened the door. Barely able to stand up, I almost feel over Finn. He guided me too the couch and I feel over.
   "Can you snuggle with me?" I ask not thinking what could happen.
    In the middle of the night, I woke up. My bra was over on the floor beside Finns shirt. I began to realize I was drunk last night, and I had made a mistake. My life could change. I decided I should go, so I stood up and wrote Finn a note. I said I had to go, and ended it with goodbye. Only this is actually a goodbye.