Castiel shorts

Not Good Enough

(This turned out sadder than I first pictured) 

Setting down the shot glass another time on the table then moving an unsteady hand for the bottle. Picking it up and tipping it some ends up in the glass and on the table. Leaving rings where the glass has been rested for the few moments between refills. Setting the bottle back down and being nearly empty your fingers curl around the small glass, dragging it to you. Beginning to lift it suddenly a hand covers and pushes it back to the table.

Taking a few seconds looking at the hand then tracing his arm up to his face. Sharing a look as he sits next to you. "Why are you doing this?" You open your mouth then close it as you avert your eyes. "I just... you don't know." "What wouldn't I know," he asks in a stern voice. "I... I'm just not good enough." He slips his hand under yours and you shyly peek up to see his expression turn. Closing his eyes for a bit and bringing his other hand he pinches the bridge of his nose.

Turning your head back because you can't take his kicked puppy expression. He squeezes your hand and you turn your attention back to him. "You should never think that," you can feel your heart breaking as he says this. "Make the pain stop Cas, I can't take it anymore." He looks at the bottle, "and this is the way to stop it?" "Only dulls and it's the only way I know." He leans in a little, "this is no way to live."

You bite the inside of your cheek, "I'm no where near perfect and its just easier." Looking at the glass until is disappears, also the bottle, "what happened?" "I got rid of it because it's a crutch and you don't need it. No ones perfect, we are all flawed," he looks up slightly, "even angels. It takes a strong person to pick up the pieces, glue them back together and keep fighting." He wipes away a welled tear with his thumb, "promise me you will always fight, no matter the circumstances." Your lip quivers and you nod. "I need to hear the words," he looks at you waiting. "I uh... promise." He smiles, "good."

He goes to drop your hand but you keep hold. "Cas?" He turns his attention back to you, "now promise me." After being stunned for a second, "I promise." You both sat there a little while longer just saying nothing but you knew.