the story of us

Not true!

don't let me go... don't let me go
"Ricky I do have a boyfriend. You knew that!" I said raising my voice. "Cody, you call that a boyfriend?" He chuckled. "What's that suppose to mean?" I said confused.
      "Chloe, I wanted you to be happy so I bit my tongue all these years, but he's not a true boyfriend. He doesn't see pain behind your eyes, he's not there for everything, he just dates you cause you make him look good. Your gonna hate me, but it's the truth..." Ricky said and I chuckled.
       "You think this is funny?" He said moving his position. I shook my head still chuckling. "This is pathetic!" Ricky said throwing his hands in the air. "You know what lukasiak, then you go with him, see how long it lasts with me in town, here's my number, text me when it clashes, cause I'll be there for you, like I always am" he said and stood up. I stood up as well.
      "Wow. Wow Garcia. You think you were there for everything! Where were you all of this year! Huh!" I raised my voice. "That was my choice" he said turning and looking at me. "And I had to deal with the consequence" I said looking at my feet.
      "Even before you moved, I can name things you didn't handle..." I said pushing my hair out of my face. "Yeah and what are those things"  he said and honestly, I had several things on my mind. "How about when Avery killed herself. You weren't there" I said and teared up thinking about Avery. Avery, she was one of my best friends in 6th and 7th grade. She killed herself in 7th grade, and it's the worst thing I've had to deal with.
      "That's true, but you know what you didn't want me" he threw his arms in the air. "It doesn't matter wether I wanted you or not!" I raised my voice and I tear fell from my cheek. "Okay," he shrugged "that's once" he added.
     "How about when Brooke had cancer? That was 5 straight months of nothing from you! And you call yourself her boyfriend?" My voice cracked. In late 7th grade Brooke had cancer. In and out of the hospital, it was horrible.
     "Oh my god! Oh my gosh! Your incredible" he said rudely. "Thank you" I said. He half smiled. "I saw that half smile" I said and giggled. There was a moment of silence.
     "Don't you miss this?" Ricky said. "Miss what?" I said crossing my arms. "Us.. Laughing, choking, we were everything" he said and I started to cry. "You ended it all, you left and I broke" I said wiping my eyes. "I didn't have a choice!" He said loudly. "But if you did, who would you have chose, your family or me?" It was silent again.
      "Exactly. Ricky, here's what we're gonna do" I began. "I'm gonna call Bailee and Paige and talk, your gonna go make out with Brooke, and I'm gonna call Cody after. Enjoy your night because this is pathetic were not what we use to be" I said and turned to go inside my door.
     "You said you'd always be there for me! Hell you don't even know why I'm here. You go make out with Cody.. Enjoy your life. Just when your kids ask who I am.. Tell them. Tell them all we were" Ricky said and I cried and went inside.
      I wasn't doing this. Not today.
AN// sorry this was so long 😣