the story of us

scared

     oh but honestly... I am scared.
We all sat there for awhile, silently. For the first time in the whole day of being at this hospital, we heard something about Brooke.
      Brooke's mom came out with tears in her eyes. "Is everything okay, you know.. With Brooke?" Bailee asked standing up. Paige and I both stood up and put our arms around each other. "Her cancer is back" Brooke's mom muttered in tears.
      My heart broke and so did Bailee's and Paige's. We all started crying. "I'm sorry girls" Brooke's mom said. "No, I'm sorry." I said and we all hugged. "Can I talk to her?" I asked.
      "Ask the nurse baby" Brooke's mom said and I walked over to were the nurses were. "Excuse me" I muttered threw my tears. "Can I go in to room 164, and talk to my friend Brooke?" I asked wiping my eyes. "No, only family can darling." The nurse said in a rude tone.
      "Me and Brooke have been threw everything together. You see Bailee over there, yeah and Paige. We are family to Brooke! The only thing we don't share is blood so don't you dare stand here and tell me Brooke and I aren't family!" I said mad and crying. Cody walked over and put his arms around me. He muttered "sorry" to the nurse and he kept his arms around me.
     "Chlo. You can't talk to Brooke. I'm sorry." He said. "No! I have to talk to her. She's mad at me and hates me and I can't live with myself if she well.. If she dies mad at me. The last memory she has of me, is me screaming at her." I said crying even harder.
     "Ma'm you can go in there for five minutes only" the nurse said and I ran to the door to room 164. I put my hand on the door handle and slowly opened it. Brooke was laying there, tubes in her nose, eyes shut.
     I sat on a chair next to the bed. "Brooke." I said softly. "I know you can't hear me." I said. "But, I'm so sorry Brookie" I said bursting into tears. "Your more important than any boy and I love you so much. I'm sorry I read your mail I'm sorry I was such a mean person. Thank you for being my sister. I hope you know how sorry I am. I hope your okay. I..." I layed my head on the bed crying.
     "If you wanna let go.. It's okay. Just know that I'm so sorry. I love you. Thanks for a great 4 years. I love you girl" I said and stood up to leave. Ricky's he's was poked in the door. I shook my head and I left and Ricky entered.
     I wanted to listen to what he said but he turned back out and left the room. I was confused.