songs
vegas lights - panic! at the disco
somebody else - the 1975
throne - bring me the horizon
pillow talk - zayn malik
//
i can hear the static of the phone and charlotte's soft breath on the other side of the line. i don'y say anything and the line stays silent for a minute. then charlotte speaks up,
"hello? is- perrin are you there?"
"..."
"perrin?"
"yeah, i'm here."
"am i allowed to ask how you are?"
"i've been better."
"per-"
"yeah charlotte?"
"i'm Sorry."
she begins to sob into the phone,
"i was so stupid! it was wrong to blame it all on you!"
"..."
"..."
"no you were right. it was my fault."
charlotte is silent for a beat and decides to change the subject,
"so how are philip and cleo doing? you are still friends with them right?"
"newly friends with cleo, sadly still friends with philip." that incites a laugh from both parties.
"have you been keeping it together?"
that's a blatant question. hell, i have no clue. i guess the answer is no because i'm emotionally unstable and just kissed my best friend a month after i killed the love of my life.
"i've been doing the best i can."
"i feel like everyone's been saying that."
"that's because it's true. we all try our best to move on even though moving on is a bitch."
"amen, per."
"are you going to visit anytime soon?"
"if you still want to see me i would love to."
every mean thing i have wanted to yell at her about over the month evaporates and i think back to when she visited alex and me during our junior year.
"where are we headed?" charlotte asks on the walk over. i have strict instructions from alex not to say a word but i give her a hint anyway,
"i am under oath not to say where, but it's one of alex's favorite restaurants. he really wanted you to come here." she smiles and adjusts her blindfold with the hand that isn't looped through my arm.
"i probably shouldn't be saying this but did he ever tell you what he texted me the day after he met you?" charlotte asks sheepishly.
"no he hasn't."
"he went on about how amazing you were and told me that he wants to marry you one day." i am gracious for alex's insistence on a blindfold right now because i am positive my entire face is red.
"he is such a sweetheart," she whispers.
"ooo we're here."
i lead her through the door and take off her blindfold. my eyes adjust to the light and the small ice cream shop focuses around me. charlotte takes it all in and focuses on alex sitting at one of the bright pink tables in the corner grinning from ear to ear. she squeaks and runs over to him and he envelops her in a hug.
"alex this is so much like the one at home! how did you find it?" alex turns and signs with his hands,
p-e-r-r-i-n.
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I HAVE WANTED TO SHARE THIS INFORMATION FOR SO LONG AND HERE IT FINALLY IS!!! ask any questions if you have them!!
(I found this photo and it reminded me of philip)
YOU ARE READING
since.
Short Story// since he's been gone, there's a cold side of the bed. since he left, I don't know how to handle myself. since he died, I died a little too. \\
