Paper Hearts.

Danielle Peazer. *Liam*

                Liam’s POV

                The whole day it had been a down pour. Something I should be used to, but today I felt like the world was telling me what a waste of a human being I was. I knew the minute I woke up that it was the day Cassidy found out the sex of the baby, yet I couldn’t force myself to call or text her.

                I still hadn’t worked up the nerve to go apologize to the boys, not that they would listen. I still couldn’t text Cassidy and here’s the funny part. Are you ready? I still hadn’t gone to see Danielle. It had been days after I left Cassidy being sure I would go see Danielle, but every time I stepped out of my apartment I either felt like a horrible person or the paparazzi would ask why I wasn’t with Cassidy.     

I was sitting in my window seat looking over the city of London. No one was outside, and the sky was almost black it was so dark. I watched a lightning bolt hit the ground causing the dark navy blue color of the sky sure to a purple and pink.  I felt tears running down my face because in my lap was my phone, and on my phone was a text messages.

                From: Danielle Peazer.

                Come over when you’re ready. I’ll be here. Xx

                Right now it seemed like the worlds’ worst thing to do, and also the only option. So here I find myself standing on Danielle’s porch. Completely soaked from head to toe, not just soaked, like movie scene soaked. I was sure most of the water in my face was tears though; today had just been a bad day. But yet I found myself knocking on her door.

Danielle opened the door wearing black shorts that showed her long skinny legs nicely with an old jersey with the number 5 on it. My eyes trailed to her stomach, flat. She leaned forward and wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me more forcefully then Cassidy ever had. I didn’t like it.

Danielle pulled me into her small home and led me to her bedroom where she gave me some clothes. She didn’t leave the room while I changed, another thing she did that Cassidy didn’t. I still didn’t like it. She then walked forward and pushed me on the bed. We still hadn’t even talked, but she was trying to get my clothes off.

I just sat there; I could reject her for some reason. But every time she did something I compared her. She kissed my neck, Cassidy’s face popped into my head. She bit my earlobe, that was something I never liked yet she always did it, Cassidy didn’t. She stood up from the bed and pulled her shirt over her head and collapsed back over top of me. Her flat stomach pressed against my abs, I missed the baby bump.

“I missed you,” She whispered kissing down my neck. I didn’t say anything. I just looked up at the ceiling and watching her fan twirl. That didn’t last long though because my phone went off on the dresser. She sat up and walked over to it swaying her hips more than normal.

“Cassidy?” Hadn’t she seen the news? I jumped forward and grabbed my phone from Danielle’s hands earning a weird look; I couldn’t get myself to care though. I knew what this text was; it was telling me the sex of my baby. But nothing- I mean nothing- could have prepared me for what I read and saw.

From: Cassidy xx

 I know you don’t care anymore, but I thought I would tell you. I understand that you want nothing to do with either us and that’s fine by me, but when the baby is born I want you to sigh papers so I know when it’s older you won’t try to take it. By the way daddy to be, it’s a girl.

There was a picture attacked to the text which was a picture of the sonogram, one of the baby sucking her thumb. It was a girl. I was going to have a girl. My little angel.  I wanted so bad to leave, to get away from Danielle. But I couldn’t. For some reason I could get my legs to work. But soon they worked because I dropped my phone in shock and walked over to Danielle throwing her on the bed. She giggled because she thought I wanted her. I didn’t want her.

                I wanted Cassidy and my baby girl.