Desire {Christian Delgrosso Fanfiction}

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Everyone was sleeping in our bedroom but I couldn't relax and lay down. They all looked so peaceful and dreamy, my body was tense though. I could not even close my eyes and pretend to be sleeping until I finally would fall asleep, I just couldn't. It was 4 am. God, what am I going to do all this time? I looked around the room. It was so quiet as if everyone had died. Why are you all sleeping? Where did that we'll stay up all night go? I'm sleepless again. Help.

I walked to the other side of the room, looking outside the huge clear window. The sky was in peace and the stars were shining brighter than the moon itself. My eyes wandered around the outside. I could see a thousand buildings; hotels, houses, skyscrapers. Huge and beautiful. Big cities always were my favorite places to be. I loved other places too, you know, places closer to nature but cities had something that made me feel drawn to them. All those city lights made me feel less lonely. I noticed two other people outside our hotel. They were wearing pajamas which implied that they were staying in the hotel as well. One of them was smoking and the other one was talking on the phone. Night birds as me.

I put on my jacket and left the room quietly while half of my friends were snoring. I got downstairs as silently as I could. Once I got outside, I was all alone. The two people that were there just seconds ago, were now gone. I sighed and put my hands inside my jacket's pockets. It was kind of chilly but it was the kind of enjoyable breeze. I was trying to let go of some stress by wandering around like an idiot. I would rather stare at the stars and dream away than let my thoughts take over me.

"What are you doing here alone!?" I jumped out of surprise and fear when I heard a voice behind me.

"Damn, you scared the hell out of me!" I whispered, my voice shaking.

"Sorry, didn't mean to." Justin pressed a soft smile and came closer to me, wrapped up in his jacket.

"I'm just...sleepless again." I shrugged, replying to his previous question. His eyes met mine, he looked much awake for someone who had been supposedly sleeping just minutes ago. "Was I not quiet enough?" I mumbled, looking away as a small smile got formed on my face.

"I wasn't sleeping." Justin stated, he gazed at the sky for a brief moment and he turned his eyes on me again.

"But you were pretending to be." I chuckled, rolling my eyes softly. Why would anyone pretend to be sleeping though?

"True." Justin shrugged slightly before sighing. "Is it because of your anxiety?"

Why do you always turn the conversation on me? "You know it is." I mumbled, looking down for a brief second before turning my eyes on Justin.

He connected our eyes for a moment. "Did you enjoy the movie? I had lots of comments to make that I'd like to share with you because we always do that together but, yeah, you know, you were..uhm, with, ah.." He was talking quite fast but his tone changed after the word 'together' as if the whole world stopped there and he ran out of words to go on.

I realised he wanted to point out that I was too busy enjoying the movie with Christian and not Justin himself but I thought I should better ignore it and not take the whole conversation to another level. "I loved the movie and we can still talk about it, you know." I shrugged, smiling softly in an attempt to make him feel better.

Justin's facial expression eased and he nodded. "What was your favorite part? I fucking loved the scene when Wade stubbed Francis in the chest and Colossus with N..."

I cut him mid-sentence. "I really liked the scene where Wade finally kissed Vanessa again, after all this time." I locked my eyes on his while he was staring deep into mine and looked frozen in time.

"When he kissed her like this...?" Justin whispered as he walked closer to me and I stood frozen. Oh, no. That's not what I meant, oh my. How do I stop him without being freaking rude? Ugh!

"Why the hell are you two up!?" Christian yelled at us from the inside before opening the hotel's front doors and coming out as well. He was yawning constanly when Justin and I both jumped out of surprise and I was so relieved that Christian interrupted us.Phew!

"Did you sleep well, baby?" I got close to him and bear-hugged him.

"How can I sleep well if you're not there with me!?" Christian kissed my head while I was still holding him tightly. He's so huggable, he's like a fluffy stuffed animal, I just can't get enough, oh god.

I laughed at his response and pulled away from him slowly. "I'm sorry, I couldn't get any sleep again!" I sighed lightly.

"And what about him?" Christian looked over at Justin who pretended to be checking his phone.

I shrugged meaning that I didn't even know why exactly Justin was up.

"Hey, Justin, let's go upstairs, bro." Christian smiled at Justin who nodded and joined us towards upstairs.

"Hey, actually, what would you say if we..." Christian stopped right before we even reached the elevators and headed back outside with me and Justin following right after him, curiously. "...jump into the pool!?" He said and took off the shirt, jumping into the chilly water.

"I'm in!" I yelled right away and jumped in after I took off my jacket and shoes. The water was kind of cold but bearable enough. Christian wouldn't stop diving in and out causing all the water drops fall on my face and wet Justin who was still out there staring at us as if we were idiots. Well, we sort of were but yeah, whatever.

"What the fuck..." I heard my friends whisper once they all got downstairs. My best friends looked still half asleep which made sense and Curtis jumped in the pool, attacking Justin and taking him down with him before I could clearly what they were actually doing. I laughed while my girl friends rolled their eyes and sat next to the pool.

"Girls you should join us, it's actually getting better!" I laughed and they shook their heads at me in an almost facepalm expression.

Christian swam over to me and wrapped his arms around me. "Now it's actually getting even better in here..." He mumbled playfully before squeezing my waist a bit while I giggled because I was slightly tickled. He kissed my cheek and rested the side of his head on mine. "You're adorable, I love you, (Y/N)."

Aww. "I love you, too, Christian." I said and felt his arms tighten around me for a long moment.

"Actually, it's getting fucking weird in here with you two being all over each other." Curtis teased us and I rolled my eyes at him. "You're not fu-" I was going to bring him down with my bitchy attitude again but I wasn't even let to finish my sentence when Justin cut me off. "I'm afraid I have to agree with that." He stated coldly at Curtis's comment while avoiding to look at me when I was gazing so hard at him. What are you doing!? I thought about him and wanted to actually attack him at that moment. How dare he, he was supposed to support me in this. I mean, okay, yes, we might be annoying you with our behavior sometimes but we're your friends, please pretend you didn't see it and ignore it so we all feel okay. Why would he even do this now? He ruined the fun we were having just seconds ago and I did not understand the reason.