Poems

My second Chance

I never thought i'd be given a chance to love again.

After him, my whole world changed.

My heart grew cold, buried deep beneath layers of tissue, unable to feel emotion.

I found comfort in the solitude of no emotions, I enjoyed the thrill that came only from dancing across the line of normalcy. I welcomed the sweet warmth of whiskey that traveled through my veins, or the bolt of insanity that made me feel alive after smoking all night.

I became a robot both physically and mentally. Keeping myself busy or inebriated was how I lost humanity. I woke up, went to school, rode, then went out and got plastered. It was a dangerous routine that I fell in love with.

But then I met you, and all of the sudden drinking didn't quite give me the exuberation it once had. Breathing in the weed only made me want to kill the person I was and become better for you.

I ended the meaningless hook ups because you were the only person that I could even fathom wanting to be with so intimately.

You changed me, for the better. You caught me after I had jumped off the edge and you let me use your shoulders to climb back up.

I always thought I knew what love was from previous heartbreaks but you turned the meaning into something entirely different and wonderful.