Poems

Anger

Im fucking angry

Angry enough to feel fire in the veins on the back of my neck 

A flaming red stream of adrenaline pulsing through my clenched fists

Angry enough that all I want to do is shove you

hit you

scream at you

I'm fucking angry.

But, I am also sad 

 I feel pity for you

You're cruel words 

Abusive actions that make people flinch

I am sad that you have not tried to be better

I am sad for you. 

I called my mother this morning, to laugh to her

I spilt my coffee everywhere in my car and was missing class because of it. 

All we did was speak for 10 minutes.

Then, I heard your voice. 

Next I heard the tears from my mother and her choked cry, 

"I can't even talk to my daughter for 10 minutes?"

His response? 

"No." 

When I was younger I used to think that you were abusive and mean

Aas time went on, you seemed to get better. 

Maybe, I just tuned it out.