I Hate You, I love You

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Dear Anna,

I wish I was over there to help fix your wrist. I don't like hearing that you are hurt especially because of me. I wish I hadn't broke my phone or we could have been texting instead. Damn my temper.

That's my good hoodie! Fine, you can keep it but you better take good care of it. That hoodie is special to me. That night was fun wasn't it. I remember some of it. I didn't drink as much as you so I remember a little more.

I remember you pulled out a bottle of crown from your bag. I was so shocked. You aren't a big drinker so when you pulled that out I was concerned. You were really different that night. So care free, so wild. I think I fell more in love with you that night.  Also, I remember that the waves were crazy. I wanted to surf but you wouldn't let me. You kept telling me that you wouldn't forgive me if I got myself killed. Seeing that sad look on your face broke my heart. Your sad puppy dog eyes always win. You were also upset because the waves ruined your radio. I started laughing when you cursed at the waves like they did it on purpose.

I'm really sorry about that night with your family. The project her and I were working on was starting to stress me out and when you called I told myself I couldn't be distracted. I knew if I would have answered that we would have ended up talking for hours and as much as I would have liked that, that project needed to be done. I should have told you that in the text instead of saying we were hanging out. We were just fighting over the project. I hated that project. You got paired up with that one guy, Steven was his name I think? I was jealous. I didn't want him near you. After you left class I begged the teacher to let us be together but he wouldn't let up.

Oh my mom wanted me to tell you hi. She misses you a lot. Almost as much as me! She says she wants to visit you and your mom. I keep telling her that's not really a good idea. She still thinks we are together. It would break her heart if she knew I mess up. Hmm, how about you and I get back together and keep her from having a broken heart! I think that's a great idea!

It's not night time here but in your last letter you said goodnight so, GOODNIGHT! See you in your next letter.

                                                            Still Love You,
                                                               Drew