TimeBomb (Carl Grimes/TWD)

01

It's been five days. Five days since I left Alexandria. Five days since Carl got shot. I probably should've stuck around to see if he was alright but I couldn't. If only Sam wouldn't of screamed maybe everything would be okay right now. Well as okay as an apocalypse can be. I can't get that image of Carl out of my head. Rick's face as he watched his son fall to the ground.
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The blood that now stained our shirts was the only thing keeping us safe. Everything was going okay but then Sam stopped walking. Jessie was trying to get him to keep going by he wouldn't move. He just stood there until he started crying. The walkers started coming towards us obviously noticing the scene.
One of them came up behind Sam and bit his shoulder. Then another one went after his head. Sam screamed as the walkers dragged him down.
The look on Jessie's face was terrible. She screamed louder than I've ever heard.
It happened so fast.
She was dead.
Walkers surrounded her as she screamed but she was still holding onto Carl's hand.
I looked at Rick and watched as he raised his axe and chopped Jessie's arm off at the wrist trying to free Carl. I was still holding onto Carl's other hand when Ron pointed a gun at Rick. 
I guess that's what happens when you cut a kids moms hand off.
Rick looked at Ron and then a sword went through him.  Michonne killed him before he could shoot Rick but when she did he still managed to fire the gun. I knew were the bullet had gone but I couldn't look. I forced myself to turn my head and saw Carl with blood dripping down from were is eye should be.
"Dad." Carl said as he looked at his father.  "Carl. " Rick said as Carl fell to the ground.
He picked him up and ran behind Michonne and I as we made our way to the infirmary.  The walkers weren't making this any easier.
I dug my knife into a walkers head trying to get it out of my way. 
I pulled it out of his skull in time to stab another in the eye as he came towards me. 
Rick ran into the house and sat Carl down. "Help him please. " Rick said scared for his son. 
Denise nodded. Rick walked out of the house and went into the streets of Alexandria.
I stood in the doorway watching Denise try to save Carl.
"I can't stay here."I said partially to myself as I turned towards the door.
"Alex,  Don't leave. " Michonne said.
"I don't want to stay here, Michonne, I can't stay here. " I said with clenched fist.
"What do you think running away is going to fix?" she asked me "What about Daryl? Are you just gonna leave him? "
I sighed "He'll understand, hopefully, and I-I'll come back." I said as I turned towards the door. I know I shouldn't be leaving. I know she's right but I don't want to stay here right now.
"If you don't leave then you won't have to come back." She said
"I'm sorry. " I said as I opened the door and left.
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I know I have to go back but I can't bring myself to do it.  I went to the gate the other day and they had already fixed it up after everything that happened.
They're doing good but I don't want to be apart of it.  So much could go wrong.  So much has already gone wrong. 
Michonne probably thinks I'm a coward. Well I am acting like one. I did run away from the only people who have ever taken care of me. I ran away from my brother.  I shouldn't have done that.  I should've found him and told him I was leaving or I shouldn't of left in the first place.
Everything I do is a mistake. I'm alone in the woods outside of Alexandria. I didn't go far because I'm not willing to completely leave yet and I don't know when I'll be able to.

An: this chapter was more of a filler/introduction to start it off so the next chapter will be better: )