you like him \ logan henderson & big time rush

Seventeen - Amanda

"He's alive, for now. If he isn't treated properly he could die. We have to go now."

We all were in the ambulance, still in tears as we watched the men put one of those breathing masks on Logan's face.

Kendall slightly pulled me into a hug and tried to assure me everything would be alright.

"I'm scared, what if he dies?" I asked. The sadness filled my tone.

He hugged tighter. "We have to pray, hope for the best."

"He's breathing," the men talked to each other. I felt a little tingle of relief inside of me. They started talking to Logan, seeing if they could get him to wake.

We reached the hospital and Kendall and I stayed in the waiting room. I felt myself wanting to cry but I held it all back to be strong in front of Kendall. Kendall knew him longer and was closer, and he knew Logan was going to be okay. I couldn't cry about that now.

"I'm scared," I admitted.

"I am too, trust me."

I thought for a minute that the other guys didn't know. "Should we call James and Carlos?" I played their reactions out in my head.

Kendal shrugged. "Not yet."

I had a bunch of things going throughout my mind right now. Memories of how I even got to where I am now. It's unbelievable to me.

"Just pick one please," she pouted.

"Ha, ha! You like the nerdy one!"

I never cared but now I felt like I did. Logan was a train wreck of emotions inside me, but he was still my friend. He was still a human who didn't deserve to die even with what he did.

"Are you gonna be alright?" Kendall asked concerned, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Fine, fine," I nodded.

"Logan Henderson," the lady called. We stood up and walked over to her. The lady led us through the saddened hospital all the way to the emergency room of the one we know.

I looked at his resting face. He was already all bandaged up and it just broke my heart.

As I stared into his face all the visions of us hugging went through my mind. All the times we shared together. They were beautiful. Now he's here, probably dead, all because of me.

I wouldn't let him talk to me, I wouldn't. I wouldn't let anything happen all because I held a grudge. I cannot believe myself, honestly. My mom always told me that in order to be free and happy, let things go that are unnecessary.

I played with my septum nervously. I was worried sick but I'm sure Kendall was worse than I was, knowing Logan longer and being associated in a career with him.