Just Go With It.

twenty three

I had caught up with a lot of friendships that I had missed out on over the few years. Me and Harry had gotten a lot closer and I never realised how much I missed him. I hadn't tried to get in contact with Jason, if he hadn't had the courage to even try and contact his daughter, why should we try? We didn't need to confuse Skye even more, and she was quite content with knowing Luke as her dad. I know that we kept a huge secret from Skye, but she was only five. She could just about remember her own name, let alone who her step dad was and who her real dad was, but then who her uncles were- it would've been too much. 

After discovering my closest friends and who was there before the accident, I caught up with as many as possible.It wasn't only Harry and I that became really close, it was with everyone. Lou and I became like sisters, Calum, Michael and Ashton were like my brothers and Ria was also a sister. Ria came round more often, using the excuse she missed me and Skye, but really, we all knew it was to see one person in particular. A tall, blonde, green eyed and a bloody amazing drummer. It was obvious that Ria had a little crush on Ashton, and he was completely oblivious to it.

Luke and I had become the strongest couple ever, of course we had our little bickers here and there, but the atmosphere leading up to Christmas was bound to be stressful. Being with Luke felt like the first time we met. It gave me butterflies ad it left a permanent smile on my face- Luke and Skye were my world and spending everyday with them was a blessing.

Christmas came round quicker than anyone wanted. One minute, we were all dossing about indoors in shorts and vests, playing about in the garden pool and taking regular visits to London for days out, then the next, Luke, Skye and I were snuggled on the sofa with a big blanket thrown over the top of us. To say Skye was excited for Christmas, would've been an understatement. The Christmas countdown had begun and every day everyone was woken by Skye running into their room and jumping into their bed, shouting how many days we had left. It always took a long time, seeing as Calum like to keep her wrapped up in his arms.

"Mummy! Daddy! 21 days till Santa comes!" she squealed as she jumped into our bed.

"Yes, baby! Santa will be here in a few weeks!" I grabbed her by her tiny waist and pulled her down onto my chest. "but for now we must sleep my little bug. Mummy and daddy are tired." she rested herself on my chest while Luke kept bopping her nose.

"Why are mummy and daddy tired?" she asked her little pout showing.

"Because daddy didn't get home from work till late last night. But if we go to sleep for a bit, till about ten, we can do what you want later, deal?"Skye nodded her head and closed her eyes, still laying on me. I wanted to sleep for the rest of the day and I think Luke did too. Luke hadn't returned home till three in the morning seeing as he was working hard on a new song in the studio.

It was around twelve when we all woke up, and that was only because Ashton had made lunch. When Skye woke up she was on her massive hype about Christmas in the upcoming weeks- but it didn't help the fact that the boys were also on a huge buzz for it. Living with the boys for the first Christmas where it was not just me and Skye, felt amazing. I had always dreamed of having my own little one with her dad, running down the stairs, dragging mummy and daddy behind her, just to see what Santa had brought her- and everything seemed to be coming true. I had my daughter, she had a dad, I had the love of my life, and we were all a huge family.

"Mummy!" Skye called from the kitchen table. "Can we go out?" she asked. Of course I had to keep to my word and allow her to do what she wanted, so that day, Skye and I went out for some ice cream and to do a load of shopping- at the start of December.

With having an amazing day like that with just Skye and I, we returned home to find Luke cooking spaghetti bolognese while the other boys were at the studio.

Living like that was the best feeling. Even though Luke and I were still young, we had matured very quickly which had both down sides and positives to it.

But one thing we knew for sure was- we were happy, and I wouldn't have changed it for the world.

A'n- Christmas even though it's June at the time of publishing...