Just Go With It.

thirty seven

Tour finished a month after I had returned home from Milan and I missed every single one of them so much. Harry had been staying over at mine and Lou had come over as well for sleepovers. At one point, I had me, Lou, Harry, Niall, Liam and Louis all camping out in my front room. Me and Harry had spoken more about the wedding as well as Luke and myself and he told me he had news to tell me when we were together.

Our relationship was strong, powerful and unbreakable and each day he was away, I really appreciated every day I had previously spent with him. I hadn't told him that I had asked Harry to give me away, I wanted it to be something we were both happy about and I wouldn't have been able to live with myself if he was upset on tour because of a decision I had made.

Skye; my gorgeous, young, kind daughter had spent months away form her mum and we both missed each other so much. She didn't like to call because it always ended up in tears and one of the boys having to comfort her while I wasn't there. She had promised to tell me all the stories when we saw each other again and I was more than happy to hear her talk about something she loved to watch and all the adventures she had.

The boys and I had also grown close. Ashton, Michael and Calum had all turned out to be the most amazing big brothers to me and the most amazing uncles to Skye, I could never thank them enough. They all had their differences, and that is one of my favourite things about them, they don't try and change to fit in, they're quite happy with who they are.

The day had arrived where tour was over. The night before, they played a show and everything got emotional on stage. They had announced to the fans, that after many years of touring, they all wanted a break. Ashton and Ria were having a baby together, which nobody expected, Calum wanted to see more of the world instead of just the main cities and Michael wanted to find somewhere he felt he belonged. Luke hadn't said anything about travelling, but one thing he did say, both surprised and scared me.

"So, Wembley Stadium, boys!" Luke said into the mic, after playing She's Kinda Hot. The crowd cheered and the four boys stood looking out at the sea of fans. "Listen, we cannot thank you guys enough for how much you have done for us." The crowd cheered again and then Ashton carried on for a while, telling them about how each and every person should chase their dreams and I couldn't agree more. Calum and Michael had a few words to say before it got back to Luke. "Now, I need everyone here to listen carefully. I want you to know, that we will love you forever and there is not a day that goes by, where we don't talk about how thankful we are." The crowd cheered again. "But, we have decided to take a break from all of this for a while." I watched closely as fans started to break out into sobs. The girl next to me was crying so much I couldn't handle it. I pulled her into a hug and when she realised it was me, she freaked a little, then hugged me back. "We have our reasons guys," Luke added.

"Yeah, I want to see a lot more of the world," started Calum. " I want to see what lies beneath the big city lights." then he looked over to Ashton who sat at his drums.

"I want to start my family with Ria. I want to be there for her throughout this pregnancy. I love her too much to make her go through this on her own and the guilt I would feel if I missed my first child's birth would hurt me a lot." The crowd awed and Ashton giggled a little before Luke started.

"She doesn't know I'm saying this tonight so I hope she doesn't kill me," he started and the crowd laughed. "but I was really hoping I'd be able to call Mimi my wife within the next few years and with that, I'd also like to start a little family with her." My jaw dropped as the girl I was hugging cried even harder.

"I love you guys so much." she cried and all I could do was rub her back, reassuring her that we loved her an awful lot. I was crying by what Luke had said, as there was nothing I wanted more than to have a family with Luke. Yes, we were still very young, but love makes you do ridiculously crazy things.