That's Good, That's Bad ~ Chris Brown

Chapter 15

- Abelle

No one could fathom how I felt at that moment. I was so confused and so high all at the same time and that was not a good mix. This never happened anyway. I never got high and emotional, I just got high and carefree. I wanted to think that Chris fucked with the weed or something, but I knew he wouldn't do that. But then again, I needed a logical explanation for why I was feeling the way I was.

I couldn't believe that seeing Chris only TWICE would result in me getting all caught up in my feelings. I thought it was all buried in my back yard, but I guess not. I was crying just a little as I waited outside for Aubrey to come get me. I wasn't sure if I wanted Chris to come outside and hold me in his arms and tell me he's sorry like he used to or if I wanted him to stay away from me forever. I really didn't know what I wanted.

As I was staring at the cement in the driveway, I felt a presence behind me. I wanted to turn around to see who it was, but in the back of my mind I already knew who it was. So, I didn't bother. I played with a little rock that was beside me on the curb as I waited for Chris to start talking.

"I didn't mean to scare you off or put you in a position where you were overwhelmed," he said in a nervous tone.

I sighed, "Um... It's actually not your fault... I got way too ahead of myself."

"But, did you mean it?" he asked. I cocked my head back and then turned around to look at him. He was standing in just his boxers causing me to laugh.

After awhile we both ended up giggling together as we thought about the weird situation he was in. He looked good with his shirt off though, more tats, and some sexy abs.

"I don't know if I meant it, I'm still high," I lied. I did mean it, it just bothered me that I didn't even let myself take some time to figure out if I meant it and what I wanted to do ABOUT it. We had seen each other TWICE and all of a sudden I missed him? It was hard to wrap my mind around that.

"Liar, but it's okay. I get it," he replied taking a seat next to me. He wrapped his arms around his knees and then took a deep breath. "It's real hard to understand how you fall for someone all over again after seeing them twice after five years. It's even harder to figure out what you plan to do with the way you feel and trying to figure out if the person feels the same way." Why the fuck was he reading my mind? I stared at him as I watched the intensity in his eyes expand. "What I'm tryna say is... I ain't gotta be your man and I ain't gotta be your nothin' if you don't want me to. I just want to at least be your friend. That's all."

I swallowed and then looked back down at the ground. My butt was getting cold from my panties being wet and all and I know Chris was too and he ain't have a damn thing on.

"I'm freezing my balls sack outchea. You wanna hurry up with that thinkin'," he teased adding a dramatic shiver. I started cracking up.

"Yeah, we can be friends," I agreed trying to stop laughing. He smiled the most perfect and most hypnotizing smile I had ever seen and then wrapped his arms around me.

I giggled and snaked my arms around his waist as I was buried into his chest. "We can be friends..." I repeated in my head. What did I get myself into?

"Is Drake coming anytime soon?" he questioned as we clung to each other for warmth.

"He told me he was on his way like thirty minutes ago," I said furrowing my eye brows.

"What did you hear in the background when you was talking to him?" he inquired.

"Uhh... Some girl's voice and then the sound of his lighter," I answered.

"That nigga ain't never coming. Let me take you home," he said helping me off of the curb. I followed him to his car and then got in with no hesitation.