Broken Treasure

Chapter 20

When I woke up the next morning I was shocked to find myself in the bed and wrapped with a blanket. I was absolutely positive I hadn't gotten up last night from my binge watching. As I contemplated my sudden ability of teleporting, the events of last night came to my mind.

Even though it was possible that I could have been hallucinating in my sleep daze, I still remember seeing those piercing blue eyes. After he realized I had waken up, he still didn't say anything and that hurt most of all. I could almost sense and feel the anger and hurt that still possessed him and it hurt because I knew I had been the cause of it.

For the past weeks he has been gone, I visualized in my head the perfect scenario of what would happen when he got back. He would walk into the room saying how much he missed me and that he loved and I would jump in his arms and we would forget all about the little mishap and live happily ever after. Sadly that was not the case.

So there we sat just staring at each other. The tension could have been sliced with a knife and the silence that hung seemed to have held our mouths shut. After a couple of minutes of this I started to get an uneasy feeling in my chest because I knew that this wasn't us.

We have never been so upset to not even speak and I couldn't take it anymore. So without thinking I got up from where I was seated and walked to the other side of the couch where he sat and made my self comfortable on his lap. I half expected him to push me off but was surprised when I felt some of the tension leave him.

All of a sudden the emotions hit hard and I couldn't keep my tears at bay any longer. I threw my arms around his neck and held on for dear life. Just the realization that I had almost lost him made it that much harder to get it together. All I could do was try and utter an apology through the tears and hope that he would stay. He didn't stay quite for long and even started to comfort me and whisper encouraging words in my ear to get me to calm down.

The rest of our moment was quite foggy because I was drained from finally getting all of those pent up emotions out but I certainly still can't come to the conclusion of how I got here. It was then that I also realized that Conner was not in the room. We still hadn't really gotten much accomplished from last night but what I did understand from him being there and comforting me was that he is willing to try and move forward. And if he was willing to try I might as well put on my big girl panties and address the issue.

With a pep in my step that I hadn't felt in weeks , I got up, took a shower and came back to the room to get dressed. When that was out of the way, I didn't want to go out and have a repeat of last night so I decided to give myself a mini pep talk. After a good five minutes, I thought I had everything together so now all I had to do was put it into action.

When I turned towards the door, I almost had a heart attack when I saw a confused looking Conner leaning on the door. I guess I was so caught up in my one woman dialogue that I didn't hear the door open.

All that practice flew out the window then and I had to start from scratch. So I ended up saying the only thing I could think of at that moment.

"Conner I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for any of this to happen but after so long of hiding the truth I didn't know how to come clean and tell you. I didn't want you to look at me differently because of what I what I went through."

He stayed put against the door through my little speech and just looked at me. After a few minutes he finally spoke.

"So you didn't tell me because you were afraid of what I would think of you?" He asked. Then out of no where he began to laugh. It wasn't just a regular snicker but it was a full fledged, gut bursting laugh. He must've seen the look on my face and stopped but not before a few more laughs escaped.