Forever Us

Chapter 32

Winters POV
    I wake up and I'm in the car. I try to sit up but as soon as I try I feel sharp pain in my legs. So it wasn't just a dream. What's wrong with me? Why would I do that to myself? I mean I want to die so nobody else gets hurt but it would kill Summer if I died. I can't believe myself. I'm such a horrible person. I try to sit up again but I end up just making a funny noise a laying back down.
"She's awake!" I hear Kellin say
"Really?" Summer says
"YA. That isn't something I would joke around about."
"True." She says to Kellin then she turns her attention to me and says "How ya feeling?"
"Did you just ask me that? I can't even sit up" I say
"Oh. Do you want me and Kellin to help you sit up?"
"Ya."
"Ok." She says unbuckling and climbing back by me and Kellin. They help me sit up and check to make sure my bandages are all correctly on. "What happened to you?", Summer ask with only concern in her eyes.
"I-I can't remember", say playing with my hands in my lap.
"Okay. I won't push you to much.",She says.
"We're stopping for pizza. What do you want?",Ashton says.
"I'm not hungry", I say. I mean I really am, but I don't deserve food. Not after what I did to myself. I'm horrible. Not another soul shall know.
"Are you sure", Kellin says, "You haven't had any food in 24 hours."
"Yeah, my stomach hurts.", I say. Yep, that' right that's what you deserve. No food. You have to feel that hunger. Your nothing but a selfish person who would leave there best friend behind for selfish reasons."Okay, that's fine just tell us when you get hungry.", Ashton says. Never.
"Can we go in, I need to change.", I say.
"Yeah, that's fine."
We finally get off the exit to the highway and arrive at the pizza place called,Michael's Pizzeria. I carefully get out the van and my head around back hurt and I'm feeling quite dizzy. I have Summer grab my bag and pull out my shirt that said My love for you was bulletproof but you're the one who shot me. In a texting bubble. Then she pulls out my black leggings, makeup, and deodorant. I look at my shoes and see they are my blue converse. Same color as the bubble it will match.
Suddenly I feel arms wrap around me and I turn to see who it is and it's Kellin. "You know no matter what you do I'll always love you", Kellin whispers in my ear. With that he walked back into the Pizzeria and left me alone confused and scared by my emotions. I jump out of my thoughts and ask Summer put my stuff in a bag and go to the pizzeria.
We walk into the bathroom. She helps me wash my face off, get dressed, and throw my shoes back on. Then she brush my hair and put into a low ponytail with my bangs hanging out. Realizing it was time to dye my hair again. Finally she does my makeup. She didn't do to much. Just did moisturizer, primer, foundation, concealer, eyeshadow, and eyeliner. I was finally done and I looked decent concerning what had happened 24 hours ago. I walk out of the bathroom with some help from Summer. We walk over to Kellin and I tell him that I want a glass of water. He gets up and gets me one then he comes back and holds it over his head.
"If you want the water I need a kiss" he says
"What?" I ask
"A kiss."
"Fine." I say as he sitts down next to me so I can reach him then I kiss his cheek
"Ok. Here you go." He says handing my the water
"What are we?"
"We're friends.", Kellin said walking away. He does that a lot. I set there utterly confused with my water in my hand. I then drink my water. Thats the last thing I remember.